Love me again

You are the persoon who broke my heart more times than I can count yet here I am still in love even though I should have fallen out of love a long time ago. We made it work and built a good life together but still I'm not enough. You don't look at me the way I look at you. I wish you still want me the way you wanted me when you couldn't have me, when I was someone else's. I want you to be inlove with me again. Look at me through the same eyes but a few years back when I was still your type. Now I'm just someone that you are used to, I carried a life within me, a piece of me and you mixed into the most precious boy. My body changed and so have I, i will never be the size 0 you want but inside I'm still me. Non the less. Still wants love and affection. Thought about getting it in someone who wants me for me, not only looking at my body but the heart within. I'm not just a pretty face you know. I have feelings too. Trust is a big thing, as of now I have little less than nothing left. Tired of fighting to be your number one again. If I loose you when trying to fine me, I will be oky with that. So just thought I write down a few feelings that you never get to hear. It was always you and me against the world but now its just me and its oky. No love of a man can ever replace the love of my kids.