**Verse 1**
All eyes on the calendar,
And I keep pretending I don’t care.
But the days stack crooked like unpaid bills,
And every choice I made feels threadbare.
I pour myself into another verse,
Hoping the rhyme will hold me upright.
But these drinks hit harder than memory,
And I’m tired of losing every fight.
**Pre-Chorus**
If I fall apart tonight
At least it’s nothing new.
Another year, another bruise,
Another call I shouldn’t make to you.
**Chorus**
So here I am—
Collapsed between the sink and my regrets.
A wasted year dissolving on my tongue.
Every friend I swore I’d keep
Has drifted out like cigarette breath.
And I’m still here, rehearsing all the things I should’ve done.
I swear I’m trying, but I’m barely holding on.
**Verse 2**
I flip through photos I don’t want,
Of summers I barely remember right.
Faces blur like cheap ink in the rain,
But one name hits like a fist tonight.
Funny how people vanish
Like they were never even here—
Just a date scrawled under a fading smile,
And a silence that grows heavier every year.
**Pre-Chorus**
If I wake you with another call,
Just let me talk until I breathe.
Some choices aren’t choices—
They’re just the only way to keep from sinking deep.
**Chorus**
So here I am—
Collapsed between the sink and my regrets.
A wasted year dissolving on my tongue.
Every friend I swore I’d keep
Has drifted out like cigarette breath.
And I’m still here, rehearsing all the things I should’ve done.
I swear I’m trying, but I’m barely holding on.
**Bridge** *(instrumental suggestion: slowcore guitars, low tremolo, almost breaking apart)*
Maybe it’s typical to cling this hard,
To ghosts that never asked for company.
Maybe I only love what I’ve already lost,
’Cause it’s easier than letting something stay.
**Outro**
So close the book on this year,
It never wanted me anyway.
I’ll drink until the mirror blurs,
And hope tomorrow looks less gray.
Another calendar, another start—
Or just another place to fall apart.
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