My Dr. was my drug dealer

Intro
White coat, clean office, diploma on the wall
Said trust the process, said this won’t hurt at all
Funny how addiction don’t come with a warning label
Just a signature line and a folding table

Verse 1
Pain from the war still ringing in my bones
Walked in for help, walked out with a code
Bottle said pharmacy, felt like relief
Didn’t know the hook was hiding in the belief

“Take two a day, you’ll be fine,” he said
Didn’t mention chains, didn’t mention dread
First time numb felt like peace at last
Didn’t know comfort could move that fast

Refills automatic, questions never asked
Money changed hands, charts got passed
They called it treatment, called it care
But dependence was blooming right there

Hook
My doctor was my drug dealer
Just legal, licensed, paid by the hour
Same result, different power
Same addiction, cleaner counter

My doctor was my drug dealer
Signed my name, sealed my fate
By the time they learned it was too late
I was already shaking at the gate

Verse 2
Tolerance climbed, the bottle shrank
Pain came back with a sharper fang
Suddenly I’m “showing signs”
Funny how that word changes sides

They pulled the script like a rug from under
No taper, no plan, just thunder
“Sorry, guidelines changed this year”
Cool, so what do I do with fear?

Body screaming, skin on fire
Mind collapsing, soul tired
You don’t quit pills, they quit you
Cold turkey ain’t a moral virtue

Hook
My doctor was my drug dealer
Till the lawsuits hit and the tone got colder
Now I’m a problem they don’t wanna shoulder
From patient to file folder

My doctor was my drug dealer
Then the system washed its hands
Left me shaking, broke and damned
With a hunger I didn’t plan

Verse 3
That’s when the street started answering calls
No insurance cards, no waiting halls
Same escape, darker cost
But when you’re sick, you count what’s lost

They say choice like it’s black and white
Like withdrawal don’t hijack your mind
I didn’t chase a high for fun
I chased not dying before the sun

Meanwhile headlines finally wake
“Addiction is illness,” for God’s sake
Now they study brains, write reports
While I’m bleeding out in court of public sports

Bridge
They got bonuses, I got scars
They got pensions, I got bars
Of guilt, of shame, of endless nights
Where survival felt like a fight

Final Hook
My doctor was my drug dealer
Different suit, same damn grip
Started legal, ended sick
That’s how the pipeline really hit

My doctor was my drug dealer
And the streets just filled the gap
When medicine pulled the map
And left me lost inside the cracks

Outro
They’re learning now, yeah, good for them
Wish that knowledge came back then
Say my name when you talk reform
Some of us were the data points they learned from

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