BY MY SIDE

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Mind off balance.

Thoughts don’t sit straight.

I talk to silence

Like it knows your name.

Phone face down.

Still glowing.

Your name buried

Under habits I won’t kill.

Air cuts sharp.

Iron on my tongue.

Every memory hits

Like it mattered too much.

I scroll a life

Where you don’t leave.

Where I don’t lie.

I need you close.

Even when you ruin me slow.

I’d rather sink

Than feel this numb control.

Say my name.

Split me open.

I won’t stop.

I won’t fold.

Pull me under.

I’ll still follow.

I need you close.

Don’t pretend.

I say I’m fine.

My voice turns sharp.

Every word breaks

Right after the start.

They keep talking.

I just nod.

Eyes locked forward

Like you’ll show up if I don’t blink.

You said

“I’m a storm.”

“You won’t survive.”

Maybe that’s the flaw in me.

I crave the damage.

The risk.

The pull.

Break me slow.

Take your time.

I come back

For the burn and the rot.

Heart in your hands.

Lift it up.

Let it shine.

Then let it drop.

I need you close.

Even when you tear me apart.

I’d rather drown

Than learn how to be calm.

Say my name.

Cut it deeper.

I won’t heal.

I won’t fight.

Drag me down.

I’ll still choose you.

I need you close.

Yeah.

I know.