First And Last Goodbye

[Verse 1]
You walk in
And my lungs just fold
Like paper boats
In your tidal pull
You say my name
And the floor leans left
I laugh it off
But my hands confess
[Chorus]
I hate how I love you
Like a fever I feed
I’m crawling in circles
Around what I don’t need
My first and last goodbye
Is burning in my throat
Every time I try to leave
You drag me like a ghost (oh)
I hate how I love you
[Verse 2]
You taste like
Every bad idea
I swore I was
Too old to chase
You turn away
And my bones go mute
Can’t hear the crowd
Just your empty space
[Chorus]
I hate how I love you
Like a habit I hide
You’re poison in daylight
You’re mercy at night
My first and last goodbye
Is written in your eyes
Every time I try to speak
The promise turns to lies (yeah)
I hate how I love you
[Bridge]
Tell me this is weakness
Tell me this is war
I’m bleeding on the ceiling
You’re sleeping on the floor
If I cut you from my memory
Would I still see your shape?
Every shadow
Every hallway
Every exit’s just your face
[Chorus]
I hate how I love you
How you hollow me out
You’re thunder in my ribcage
You’re the quiet in my doubt
My first and last goodbye
Hangs frozen in the sky
If leaving means losing you
Then teach me how to die
I hate how I love you

rock, Alternative metal meets hazy shoegaze: baritone male vocals over layered, reverb-soaked guitars, gritty bass, and tom-heavy drums. Verses stay underwater and dreamy, with dissonant chords and distant backing screams tucked low in the mix. Chorus snaps into a towering wall of sound, distorted lead line mirroring the vocal hook. Bridge strips to a pulsing drone and whispered doubles before a final, crushing outro hit., shoegaze, dream pop, alternative metal, art rock, low