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Yeah…

I gave my life to the fire

Thought it would make me lighter

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I’ve been bleeding in silence, smiling in public

Fighting my demons like nobody saw it

Said fear’s just a shadow, face it and conquer

But what if the shadow’s the only thing honest?

Twenty years building armor from trauma

Carving my ribs into pieces of promise

They told me pain turns to power with time

But time just made me tired and cautious

I tried to alchemize hurt into gold

Turn every breakdown into a sermon

But some nights the stage feels colder than hell

And the crowd don’t hear what’s burning

Yeah I turned my struggles into strength

But strength don’t mean I don’t shake

When the past still knocks at 3AM

And reminds me of every mistake

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If the answer’s somewhere I can’t see

Why does the dark feel closer than me?

If letting go didn’t hurt so bad

Would I still be who I am?

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You’ll never know yourself ‘til you walk alone

With blind faith and broken bones

They say “follow the light in your heart”

But what if the light burned out in the dark?

Will you stay when love self-destructs?

When doubt creeps in and trust corrodes?

It’s give up or give everything

And I don’t know if I’ve got it anymore

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How much blood does belief really need?

How much pain makes a man complete?

I’ve been choking on dreams I can’t reach

With a smile stitched over defeat

Rebuilt by what broke me — that’s facts

But rebuilding still leaves you cracked

Every scar like a badge on my back

But I’d trade ‘em all just to relax

They see the spine, the fight, the rage

The scream on the edge of the stage

But they don’t see nights on the floor

Begging God just to turn the page

I’m tired of carrying torches alone

Tired of pretending I’m stone

I don’t wanna be fearless anymore

I just wanna feel like I’m home

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Tear me apart — you’ll see what remains

A heart still beating through hurricane pain

Blood in the dirt but I’m still breathing

If this is healing — why am I screaming?

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You pulled me out when I couldn’t see

When the dark felt permanent inside of me

Said I don’t have to fight alone

But I’m still scared you’ll leave me

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You’ll never know yourself ‘til you walk alone

Through dead-end streets and shattered homes

They say don’t be afraid of the dark

But the dark’s where I fell apart

Still I’m here with a heart in pieces

Still I’m here and I still believe it

If you mean it, you make it through

But God, I’m scared I won’t make it too

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From the ashes, I rose again

But ashes still stain your hands

I don’t fear the dark like before…

I just don’t wanna live there anymore