I’m Not Alright

You said you packed your suitcase

And you left it by the door

Said you couldn’t keep on living

Like we’d been living anymore

You looked me in the eyes

And said, “It’s gonna be okay”

Then you kissed me like a stranger

And turned around and walked away

I watched your taillights fading

Down that old familiar road

And for the first time in forever

This house felt like a ghost

I guess you thought I’d understand

That you were doing what was right

But there’s something you should know, girl

I’m not alright

No, I’m not alright

I’m just getting through the night

I’m learning how to sleep alone

In a bed that don’t feel right

You said goodbye

Like goodbye was easy to say

But you took more than your suitcase

When you drove away

You can tell yourself

That I’ll be fine someday

Maybe you’re right

But tonight I’m not alright

Your coffee cup’s still sitting

By the sink where you left it

There’s a picture on the dresser

That I still haven’t turned yet

Your sweater’s on the sofa

And your perfume’s in the hall

Funny how an empty house

Can still feel so full

I know I had my chances

I know I let you down

I thought you’d always be there

So I never slowed down

Now every little memory

Cuts a little deeper tonight

You said you had to save yourself

And maybe you were right

No, I’m not alright

I’m just getting through the night

I’m learning how to sleep alone

In a bed that don’t feel right

You said goodbye

Like goodbye was easy to say

But you took more than your suitcase

When you drove away

You can tell yourself

That I’ll be fine someday

Maybe you’re right

But tonight I’m not alright

If I could have one more minute

I’d tell you what I should’ve said

That I loved you more than I showed you

And I’d choose you all over again

But I know that door is closing

And I know I can’t make you stay

So I’ll carry what I broke

And live with it every day

No, I’m not alright

And I won’t lie tonight

You were the best thing I had

And I damn sure didn’t treat you right

You said goodbye

And I let you walk away

But there’s a part of me

That’ll beg you back every day

Maybe time will heal me

Maybe someday I’ll be okay

But if you’re wondering how I’m doing

Since you drove away…

I’m not alright.

No, girl…

I’m not alright.

So if you ever hear this song

And wonder if I made it through—

I did…

Just never made it over you.