Kissing the Nothing.

I went back to dreaming love in 2D frames,

Or living some wild story with a famous name.

’Cause real-life love feels fake anyway,

So I’d rather kiss the air than pretend you stayed.

I tried to act like it was you,

But you showed up in my dreams with a nightmare too.

I can’t allow it anymore,

Gotta burn it down, erase the core.

I don’t wanna dream of a house by the sea,

You and me playing till it broke me.

I don’t wanna hurt, I’d rather drown,

But I keep on building castles falling down.

I don’t wanna dream, I don’t wanna see…

But I keep lying to me.

You moved on fast, even stronger than before,

It’s gonna take me time, my heart’s crashed to the floor.

It’s smashed on the wall, engine blown apart,

Blood dripping down, covering my dark.

I can’t see the future anymore,

Haven’t felt that light in so long for sure.

I’m not even scared, I’m just numb inside,

Just this heavy stone I can’t swallow, can’t hide.

Maybe love was just a screen,

Pixels glowing, never what it seemed.

Maybe I was chasing smoke,

Holding tight to every word you spoke.

If I let you fade to grey,

Maybe I can breathe someday.

I don’t wanna dream of a house by the sea,

You and me playing till it broke me.

I don’t wanna hurt, I’d rather drown,

But I keep on building castles falling down.

I don’t wanna dream, I don’t wanna see…

But I keep lying to me.

So I’ll stop kissing the nothing tonight,

Let the waves wash out your name from my mind.

No more 2D love, no more make-believe,

I’ll learn how to wake up… and finally leave.