Overkilling me

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Brain over kill over load over happy. Is that even possible. Probably buy how. Over stimulateing thinking about things,  it's a good day planing to be. Fukk me how could things go wrong. Once I had a good outlook but deth stole it, luckily my girl she's slowly bringing it back to me,  still can't shake the feelings from the past.  I miss being more social. Now I'm stuck in myself a prison without a lock or key still can't go. Lucky she's here for me she's all I know these day's. 
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Looked up by my anxiety a prison with no locks just me holding me captive. Thank God I got her by my side  for this fikked up ride,  the past haunts me unfortunately,  someone stole the most important person in the world to me my pop hot bit by a gold digging black widow. 
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Tight chest, short of breath, PTSD got me completely defeated,  balled up and shit.  I can barely handle it. This was once my favorite time of year summers doinganythingwith pops,  now I'm shaking in feer. Don't know what I'm even scared of. Memories haunting me what I was doing  then on this day. PTSD has a grip  on me I can't shake it.
[Loop]
Looked up by my anxiety a prison with no locks just me holding me captive. Thank God I got her by my side  for this fikked up ride,  the past haunts me unfortunately,  someone stole the most important person in the world to me. 
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Choking  down  tears it should  be beers torment from a few years ago  won't let me go. I don't even know what to think it's fukked up she killed him and no one gave  a fukk but me, how could it be,  bich did it for money, ruined. My hole family,  life  and everything I love. My birthday and Christmas he came to stay with me. There gone too now. 
[Loop]
Looked up by my anxiety a prison with no locks just me holding me captive. Thank God I got her by my side  for this fikked up ride,  the past haunts me unfortunately,  someone stole the most important person in the world to me. 
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Can't breathe can't think  I hate this prison i put myself in, somehow  I know just somehow I could have saved him. No one' would  help me. So there all dead to me.
I want year round happy back. His birthday call i miss it. Zidi and meatballs. Rushing out to drink playing it off I'd do anything to have that back.  Gold digger killed more that my pops.  
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Looked up by my anxiety a prison with no locks just me holding me captive. Thank God I got her by my side  for this fikked up ride,  the past haunts me unfortunately,  someone stole the most important person in the world to me.

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