I'm a mess now

I'm a mess now that you're gone. It wasn't supposed to be this soon . I'm down on my knees asking God why ? You was supposed to be at my first wedding. And be my best man . I kept looking over while at the wedding. Looking for you . Trying to make sense of everything. This doesn't seem real yet . I lost without you at the worst time. Knowing you was just my uncle to everyone. But to me you where so much more then that . You where my best friend. The guy that I would go get a beer with . The guy I would say hey let's have a dip .the guy I would call when my car broke down and had no tools . You where the first person in the morning that I would talk to . And the last person that I would say I love you too . You where the first person to introduce into mustangs. The first person to buy me my first mustang. It was a five speed guy and you said I'll teach you . You teached me how to work on my first car . You showed me how to shift a car . You're the first person to ever take me to a car meet . You taught me everything I know. You made me the person I am today . And now I'm lost without you . The last thing you said was I love you . While dieing in my arms with my tears coming out . You where a dad to me because my real dad didn't want anything to do with me . You're the reason I didn't take that pistol and shoot myself. You where the only one to help me through everything. I will forever be lost without my best friend.