I know life’s a bitch I been approach that
I just wanna get my old hopes back
To When I was a kid and didn’t know much
Now I’m dealing with these feelings of a grown up
My mind is going crazy I can’t feel none
This pain I wanna heal but can’t heal from
I’m dealing with a pain I can’t heal up
I’m sticking to my faith one day it will come
A time where we over it
I could use some healing
I know times when u was pouring in tryna get attention from me
Sorry for ignoring it
But really I never thought that I owed u somethin
And that was the problem mommy I owed u nothing
You gave me a life that I never even asked for
You shoulda sacrificed everything u had sacrifice for
My trauma traumatic I try to fast forward
I live in the past rewind and fast forward
Stuck in me I have no idea who I really am
I needed u was supposed to be apart the plan
You failed me in every way that u ever could have
But there’s nothing wrong admitting and saying ya bad
Let’s talk about it little u know is I need the conversation
One piece in my mind is a piece that is vacant
Wonder if that piece is a piece that you a tale and forsake it
Or take new memories and just try and replace