New year

it’s a new year but

I haven’t changed one bit

I’m like a bank teller

people bring me their 2 cents

so I take it and deposit it

and add it to the safe

thats a picture

that I paint

what I mean

is I will take it to the grave

loyalty and trust

mixed with love and the lust

makes us who we are

we’re either stars or we’re dust

seeking for the truth

I have to find it’s a must

I’m like a bullet loaded in the chamber

when I bust

I will never do something

if it feels unjust

i like walks in the park

and a nicotine buzz

I get lost in myself

tryna find who I was

I don’t like to talk a lot

cause if I do I open up

I feel peace and solace every time

I keep my heart shut

everytime I let it open

they just hurt it and it cuts

I don’t know what’s thicker is it water or it’s blood

Is that water or the liquor that be feeling up my cup

at this point I’m going numb

so it all feels the same

I’m not even mad

I don’t got no one to blame

but myself

I’m the reason why I’m feeling all this pain

some people going hungry

while Im rocking all my chains

some sleeping on

the streets but a bed is right where I lay

I’ve been so damn blessed

so why the fuck do I complain?

I could’ve had way worse

ignoring Gods favors

and for that I’m sorry

I’m talking to my savior

I’m feeling like a failure

with the ways of my behavior

it’s so complicated

applying the Occam’s razor

I will never settle

for least

I want the greater

I don’t care to make you proud

I save that shit for my creator

they turned their back on me

I’m like fuck it see you later

way too many best friends

that all ended up as traitors

so don’t take it personal when I don’t want no favors

it’s not your fault

but I just do not see this pain that I carry really

falling off

I swear I juggle my thoughts

so no wonder why I’m lost

but no matter how bad it gets

I’m carrying my cross

I could never be a man that’s getting caught up

in a loss

I just take it on the chin

and then I keep it movin

and my words are packin power

like political movements

they all wolves in sheep’s clothing

and I see right through it

every time I have a dream

ima go and pursue it

I’m the same old me

yeah shit ain’t changed

I’m that pure hearted kid

always having some fun

even though I grew up in the hood yeah it was rough

surrounded by the drugs

surrounded by the guns

surrounded by the thugs

got me feeling like the one

so when it comes to games

guarantee that I play none

but if I ever did it

I can guarantee I won

everybody else be walking

and crawling I fucking run

I don’t got no time to waste

at this point of time and place

man this rap shit be feeling like a piece of fucking cake

7 days a week

I don’t ever take breaks

chasing after goals from the moment that I wake

so and come tell me what I represent?

real over fake shit

what we do is evident

everybody knows it’s excellent

I’m in my element

I be treating rap like it’s a regiment