deifirret

Of all my mistakes I can’t find the way to say

My feelings scare the shit out of me everyday

All your sweet words are comfort for

My soul.

Never heard,

Before you, it’s true.

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And I’m terrified,

Stream trailing down my cheek in the nighttime.

It’s hard to hurt you when your words are so, so kind.

And I wish my heart could change my mind.

But to say I’m not terrified would be a big fucking lie.

And I’m smiling at you wishing I could feel more alive,

And I’d hold you forever if I thought we’d survive.

I’ve never killed before, but maybe with time

I could softly let us die.

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Oh, I’m sorry my wings wrap around your neck

I try so hard to not let

My wounded spirit wound yours again

So, let’s pretend…

And my spirit’s screaming at me as I tell you that I care.

How can I create a love that’s not there?

A love that’s not there.

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And I’m terrified

Stream trailing down my cheek in the nighttime.

It’s hard to hurt you when your words are so, so kind.

And I wish my heart could change my mind.

But to say I’m not terrified would be a big fucking lie.

I’ve never killed before, but maybe with time

I could softly let us die.