Hand in hand

When I started struggling to eat... feeling like things were getting stuck.. in my throat. Like I would.. choke. Didn't know how to cope.. went to the doctor, did they figure out.. what was wrong... nope. Went home so weak, thinking I might die. I prayed out.. and cried. God, please help me. Healing is.. Your power. If there's any hope.. if not, I just want to be.. by Your side. Just to feel close. (Ohh.. close..) I went in search of You. (Seeking You..) (to find You..) I've never liked to read. But dusted off that old book.. I opened the Bible. I began... to read...

I read about the works of the flesh, asking God, if there's any of this in me.. Show me, because if so.. I just don't see.. That's when He started to reveal things to me. So I could change to be more like Him. Walk hand in hand.

I want to have love, joy, and peace. Have faith, hope, and self-control. I know with patience, kindness, and Your goodness.. what I find.. is You have such gentleness towards me.

You put me on a path, healed things in me.. I couldn't see before. Healing is.. Your power. Taught me.. Your Spirit dwells inside of me. Even though I still.. couldn't eat. I know.. You haven't given up on me. I'm like a babe.. needing spiritual milk. Maybe it's.. I'm not ready for solid food.. yet. But one day, maybe I will be. Because through You.. You've made me stand. Healing is.. Your power. (And I'm holding out my hands...) You showed me.. I can do all things.. when You strengthen me. And nothing is impossible.. for You. And if this is how.. I'm gonna be.. I know You hold my hand. You hold my hand... (And I'm holding out my hands...)

Dear God, healing is... Your power. God, it's almost been three years now.... since I could eat.. like normal. But I'm still here.. I trust.. You.. I know, you know. What's going on with me. Healing is Your power. God, I'd be happier.. maybe healthier. And... I'd still be loving You... (And I'm holding out my hands...) and walking with You hand in hand. Hand in hand... AMEN....