[Verse 1]
My voice breaks open at the kitchen sink
A laugh gets tangled in the way I think
I hold my hands beneath the running heat
Then pull them back before they learn to keep
[Pre-Chorus]
Why does kindness feel like a door
With a room I’ve never entered before?
[Chorus]
Why is it hard to open up
To warmth, to love, to a life I can touch?
My voice is cracking, I’m crying, I laugh
While my mind and body bend in half
Creek and crack, but I’m still here
Making a shape out of all this fear
[Verse 2]
There’s metal buried under my skin
Old machinery that won’t let daylight in
Every hinge complains when I try to move
Every locked-up part forgets what softness proves
[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t force the rusted frame
You sit beside me and say my name
[Chorus]
Why is it hard to open up
To warmth, to love, to a life I can touch?
My voice is cracking, I’m crying, I laugh
While my mind and body bend in half
Creek and crack, but I’m still here
Making a shape out of all this fear
[Bridge]
If I shake, let me shake
If I break, let me break
There is no shame in the sound I make
You bring a blanket, you wait by the door
I don’t have to be steel anymore
[Final Chorus]
Maybe I can open up
To warmth, to love, to the life showing up
My voice is cracking, but I’m saying your name
Crying and laughing, not hiding the same
Mind and body, bend and repair
Metal becoming something that breathes air
I’m not fixed, but I’m still here
And your hands make the future less severe
[Outro]
My voice cracks
I let it
My voice cracks
And you don’t leave