Where we are

Locked in your own mind

Fear of letting it out

Easier to just exist inside

Than expressing in real time

Vocalizing these thoughts cause more harm

Even when communication is encouraged

Strong enough to stay or strong enough to go

I don’t want to risk the loss again

My family is everything

I fear losing it all

What do I know is real?

Each high and low tells me something different

Now I live in a constant state of confusion

Which way is up?

I know there is love here

But is it conditional?

Can I really be who I am and speak my mind

Or am I locked within certain boundaries

I’m begged to please let you in and share my thoughts fully and truthfully

Yet when I do I’m met with contempt

Authentically myself yet regarded as unauthentic

Too nice, placating - you need to speak up

And then I do… now shut up.

Is this abuse? Is this to damage people trying to come together as one? Is it you? Is it me?

Who is right and who is wrong?

Are we forever in this cycle of fear and failure? Willing to be shitty but afraid to lose it all… we’ve been here before. There is more on the line now. Two beautiful souls created so let’s water this garden and continue to grow together.

Weve made it this far, let’s keep our hearts open and eyes bright - we’re in this together and there is love after all.