Nicky

(Ahh)

Still up, still thinkin’

You’re probably sleepin' in someone else’s bed now

But I’m still stuck in the same damn place

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You said, “Don’t wait up,” but I still did

Had your name saved with a heart, can’t delete it

I’ve been scrollin’ through old messages

Laughin' at texts that used to mean somethin’

I got your hoodie on my chair, won’t wash it

Playin’ songs you liked, yeah, I’m just bein’ honest

Told myself I’d move on last week

But I still wake up hopin' you’ll text me

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Tried new faces, but they all feel fake

Tryna love someone when your heart still breaks

All your friends said I was too obsessed

But they ain’t see what you left in my chest

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I fell again, even though I knew

You ran again, nothin’ new

Still hear your voice in the back of my head

Still sleepin’ on my side of the bed

Drinkin' just to feel okay

Tellin' people I'm fine, but I ain't

You said, “It’s better this way,” then dipped

Now I’m talkin’ to shadows and missin’ your lips

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You ain't even care, you just packed and bounced

Now I’m sittin' with regrets that I can't count

Said I was the one, now I’m nothin' to you

Blocked my number but I still dream of you

I know I was reckless, yeah, I messed up

But I would've fixed it if you gave a f***

Now you postin' like nothin' went down

While I’m over here tryna hold it all down

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I tried talkin' to someone, but it ain't the same

I hear your laugh in the back of her name

I still got your playlist on repeat

You moved on fast, I stayed on beat

Maybe I cared too hard

Maybe I loved too loud

But I’d rather feel pain

Than not feel you around

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I fell again, even though I knew

You ran again, nothin’ new

Still hear your voice in the back of my head

Still sleepin’ on my side of the bed

Drinkin' just to feel okay

Tellin' people I'm fine, but I ain't

You said, “It’s better this way,” then dipped

Now I’m talkin’ to shadows and missin’ your lips

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Yeah...

I stopped waitin’, but I ain’t moved on

Just got better at actin’ like you’re gone

But some nights, I still see your name light up

And my heart does that same old jump

Even when I know it's just a dream

Even when I know… it ain't you