I Keep A Clean Shirt For Bad News
A Steady Voice I Do Not Recognize
Everybody Thinks I Am Surviving
I Am Just Good At Postponing The Crash
I Do Not Stumble Into Trouble I Blueprint It
Every Disaster Wears My Handwriting
I Do Not Need Enemies I Have Patterns
They Work Overtime Without Asking Me
I Can Smell A Good Thing Before It Rots
So I Leave First To Control The Loss
They Call It Intuition I Call It Rehearsing
The End Before The Beginning Gets Ideas
I Do Not Bleed I Invent New Wounds
I Turn Open Sky Into A Closing Room
I Do Not Need Fate I Am The Knife In The Dark
I Sabotage Peace Before It Starts
If You Are Looking For Mercy You Are Late To The Crime
I Learned How To Ruin Things Right On Time
I Keep Receipts For The Moments I Lost
Not For Proof Just To Stay My Own Boss
I Do Not Regret I Audit
I Figure Out Which Dream Was Too Honest
They Say I Am Hard To Love I Correct Them
I Am Impossible To Finish
I Do Not Ghost I Evaporate
I Leave No Address For The Better Days
I Do Not Bleed I Invent New Wounds
I Draft Exits Inside Open Arms
I Do Not Fall Apart I Pre Collapse
I Practice Ruin Until It Feels Like Math
If Peace Is A Language I Fake The Accent
Then Disappear When I Am Asked To Translate
I Do Not Trust Anything That Stays
I Do Not Trust Anything That Wants Me
The Quiet Scares Me More Than Screams
Because Quiet Gives Me Time To Think
And Thinking Is Where The Damage Learns To Talk
You Do Not Fix A Man Like Me
You Document Him
I Do Not Bleed I Manufacture Loss
I Turn Almost Into Almost Was
I Do Not Need Storms I Am The Weather
I Ruin Futures With Present Tense
If You Wonder Why Nothing I Touch Survives
It Is Because I Learned Control By Cutting Life
They Will Say I Am Healing
That Is The Lie I Use
To Keep Inventing New Wounds