Disappear While Standing Still

Verse 1

I stopped leaving when things felt wrong
I just learned how to stay quiet
Every room I ever belonged in
Feels like something I outgrew in silence
People say I look the same
But I feel like a before picture
Like I am still in the frame
But no one checks the fixture

Pre-Chorus

I am not lost in motion
I am lost in place

Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still
How to fade in the middle of everything real
I am here but I am not felt
Like I set myself on the highest shelf
If vanishing is a kind of skill
Then I learned how to disappear while standing still

Verse 2

I kept my voice in neutral gear
So I would not cause friction
Every truth I almost said
Became another condition
I watch my life from a side angle
Like I do not get a vote
I am not drowning I am shrinking
In the notes I never wrote

Pre-Chorus

I am not scared of leaving
I am scared of being seen

Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still
How to lose myself without missing a bill
I am present but I am not held
Like I am slowly talking to myself
If survival is a quiet thrill
Then I learned how to disappear while standing still

Bridge

They call it maturity
I call it subtraction
Every year I get better
At removing reaction

Final Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still
How to become invisible without the will
I am here in the shape of me
But I am not who I used to be
If staying is harder than the kill
Then I learned how to disappear while standing still

Dark Blues-Rock • Modern Americana • Emotional Alternative, male, studio