Disappear While Standing Still

Verse 1

I stopped leaving when things felt wrong

I just learned how to stay quiet

Every room I ever belonged in

Feels like something I outgrew in silence

People say I look the same

But I feel like a before picture

Like I am still in the frame

But no one checks the fixture

Pre-Chorus

I am not lost in motion

I am lost in place

Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still

How to fade in the middle of everything real

I am here but I am not felt

Like I set myself on the highest shelf

If vanishing is a kind of skill

Then I learned how to disappear while standing still

Verse 2

I kept my voice in neutral gear

So I would not cause friction

Every truth I almost said

Became another condition

I watch my life from a side angle

Like I do not get a vote

I am not drowning I am shrinking

In the notes I never wrote

Pre-Chorus

I am not scared of leaving

I am scared of being seen

Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still

How to lose myself without missing a bill

I am present but I am not held

Like I am slowly talking to myself

If survival is a quiet thrill

Then I learned how to disappear while standing still

Bridge

They call it maturity

I call it subtraction

Every year I get better

At removing reaction

Final Chorus

I learned how to disappear while standing still

How to become invisible without the will

I am here in the shape of me

But I am not who I used to be

If staying is harder than the kill

Then I learned how to disappear while standing still