I find peace

I grew up choking on the noise in my head,

Every mirror said the same thing I never said.

Hands shaking, feet stuck in the cold concrete,

Dreams felt heavy, like they dragged me to my knees.

I learned to survive by clenching my jaw,

Counting the scars, calling pain “the cost.”

But there’s a hum in the distance I can’t ignore,

A quiet calling me higher than the floor.

I’ve been grounded by fear, by the weight of my name,

But the sky doesn’t care where I came from or my shame.

I find peace in the roar of the engine and the wind,

When the earth lets go and I finally ascend.

Up here the past can’t follow me,

I leave my ghosts in the gravity.

I’m not running, I’m finally free—

I learned how to breathe when I learned how to fly.

I carried the pressure like fuel in my veins,

Every failure just sharpened the edge of my pain.

I’ve been lost in the clouds of what I should be,

Drowning in doubt, learning discipline from defeat.

The world looks smaller when I’m miles above,

All the things I hated, all the things I loved.

Turns out healing isn’t fixing what’s broken inside,

It’s trusting your hands when they’re holding the sky.

I was taught to be strong by swallowing hurt,

But strength is choosing to rise when you’re burned.

I find peace in the roar of the engine and the wind,

When the earth lets go and I finally ascend.

Up here the past can’t follow me,

I leave my ghosts in the gravity.

I’m not running, I’m finally free—

I learned how to breathe when I learned how to fly.

Cut the strings—let me go,

I’m not the weight you told me I was.

White lines, blue skies,

I found myself between the stars and scars.

If I crash, at least I tried,

I’d rather fall from truth than live the lie.

I find peace where the silence screams,

Above the doubts that were killing me.

The higher I climb, the clearer I see,

I’m more than the sum of my misery.

I’m not escaping, I survived—

I buried my fear in the clouds tonight.

When I come back down, I’ll still be changed,

But up there…

Up there, I’m at peace.