Nine Months (I Carried You)

Title: Nine Months (Still Your Baby)
Verse 1
For nine months, I carried you…
Now I’m sittin’ in the dark, all I have are memories of you
Askin’ God why… what did I do…
Feelin’ like this life just cheated you
They took my baby… and I can’t breathe…
Left me with silence and memories
Verse 2
I replay every year of your life
Tryna figure out if I did wrong or right
Did I miss a sign… could I change that night?
Or was this pain already written in my life?
I would trade my breath to hear you laugh
Give up everything to get you back
They say time heals… but that ain’t true
Time just makes me miss you more
Chorus
They took my baby… and I can’t breathe
Left me with silence and memories
I’m still callin’ your name in my sleep
Hopin’ somehow you hear me
I don’t understand… I don’t understand
How life keeps goin’ when you ain’t here
I’m livin’… but I’m not the same
Ever since they took you away
Verse 3
Your smile still lives inside my mind
I see your face every time I close my eyes
They say you're gone… but I feel you near
In every tear… in every prayer
Bridge
If heaven had a phone, I’d call you tonight
Just to hear your voice say, “Mama, I’m alright”
I’m tryin’ to be strong, but I’m breakin’ inside
I just wanna hold you one more time

And I still ain’t learned how to say goodbye
Still talk to God… 
I just stopped askin’ why
’Cause in reality, no answer could ease the pain I feel inside
So I’ma keep goin’, I’ma live for us both

Verse 4 (Child’s Voice)
Dear Ma…
I see you cryin’, I ain’t that far
I’m right beside you, even in the dark
I know you hurtin’, I see your scars
But you're still my hero… just the way you are
Mama… don’t blame yourself… You gave me love
More than enough… You were enough
And every time you say my name
Just know I hear you…
I’m in a place where there’s no pain
No more tears, no more rain
So when you look up… just know I’m there
Still your baby… still your prayer

Pain, soul, RNB, gospel, male