Nine Months (I Carried You)

Title: Nine Months (Still Your Baby)

Verse 1

For nine months, I carried you…

Now I’m sittin’ in the dark, all I have are memories of you

Askin’ God why… what did I do…

Feelin’ like this life just cheated you

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe…

Left me with silence and memories

Verse 2

I replay every year of your life

Tryna figure out if I did wrong or right

Did I miss a sign… could I change that night?

Or was this pain already written in my life?

I would trade my breath to hear you laugh

Give up everything to get you back

They say time heals… but that ain’t true

Time just makes me miss you more

Chorus

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe

Left me with silence and memories

I’m still callin’ your name in my sleep

Hopin’ somehow you hear me

I don’t understand… I don’t understand

How life keeps goin’ when you ain’t here

I’m livin’… but I’m not the same

Ever since they took you away

Verse 3

Your smile still lives inside my mind

I see your face every time I close my eyes

They say you're gone… but I feel you near

In every tear… in every prayer

Bridge

If heaven had a phone, I’d call you tonight

Just to hear your voice say, “Mama, I’m alright”

I’m tryin’ to be strong, but I’m breakin’ inside

I just wanna hold you one more time

And I still ain’t learned how to say goodbye

Still talk to God…

I just stopped askin’ why

’Cause in reality, no answer could ease the pain I feel inside

So I’ma keep goin’, I’ma live for us both

Verse 4 (Child’s Voice)

Dear Ma…

I see you cryin’, I ain’t that far

I’m right beside you, even in the dark

I know you hurtin’, I see your scars

But you're still my hero… just the way you are

Mama… don’t blame yourself… You gave me love

More than enough… You were enough

And every time you say my name

Just know I hear you…

I’m in a place where there’s no pain

No more tears, no more rain

So when you look up… just know I’m there

Still your baby… still your prayer