Nine Months

For nine months, I carried you…

now I’m sittin’ in the dark, all I have is memories of you…

Askin’ God why… what did I do…

Feelin’ like this life just cheated me…

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe…

Left me with silence and memories

I replay every year of your life

Tryna figure out if I did wrong or right

Did I miss a sign… could I change that night?

Or was this pain already written in my life?

I would trade my breath just to hear you laugh

Give up everything just to get you back

They say time heals… but they don’t know this

Time just shows me everything I miss

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe

Left me with silence and memories

I’m still callin’ your name in my sleep

Hopin’ somehow you hear me

I don’t understand… I don’t understand

How life keeps goin’ when you ain’t here

I’m livin’… but I’m not the same

Ever since they took you away

Your smile still lives inside my mind

I see your face every single time I close my eyes

They say you gone… but I feel you near

In every tear… in every prayer

Bridge

If heaven got a phone, I’d call you tonight

Just to hear your voice say “Mama, I’m alright”

I’m tryin’ to be strong, but I’m breakin’ inside

I just wanna hold you one more time

They took my baby… and I still cry

Ask God questions He won’t reply

But I’ll keep sayin’ your name out loud

’Cause love like this don’t die

Ma… I see you cryin’, I ain’t that far

I’m right beside you, even in the dark

I know you hurtin’, I see your scars

But you still my hero… just the way you are

Don’t blame yourself… you gave me love

More than enough… you were enough

And every time you say my name

Just know I hear you… it ain’t the same

I’m in a place where there’s no pain

No more tears, no more rain

So when you look up… just know I’m there

Still your baby… still your prayer”

They took my baby… and I still cry

Ask God questions He won’t reply

But I’ll keep sayin’ your name out loud

’Cause love like this don’t die