Nine Months

For nine months, I carried you…
now I’m sittin’ in the dark, all I have is memories of you…
Askin’ God why… what did I do…
Feelin’ like this life just cheated me…

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe…
Left me with silence and memories

I replay every year of your life
Tryna figure out if I did wrong or right
Did I miss a sign… could I change that night?
Or was this pain already written in my life?

I would trade my breath just to hear you laugh
Give up everything just to get you back
They say time heals… but they don’t know this
Time just shows me everything I miss

They took my baby… and I can’t breathe
Left me with silence and memories
I’m still callin’ your name in my sleep
Hopin’ somehow you hear me

I don’t understand… I don’t understand
How life keeps goin’ when you ain’t here
I’m livin’… but I’m not the same
Ever since they took you away

Your smile still lives inside my mind
I see your face every single time I close my eyes
They say you gone… but I feel you near
In every tear… in every prayer
Bridge

If heaven got a phone, I’d call you tonight
Just to hear your voice say “Mama, I’m alright”
I’m tryin’ to be strong, but I’m breakin’ inside
I just wanna hold you one more time

They took my baby… and I still cry
Ask God questions He won’t reply
But I’ll keep sayin’ your name out loud
’Cause love like this don’t die

Ma… I see you cryin’, I ain’t that far
I’m right beside you, even in the dark
I know you hurtin’, I see your scars
But you still my hero… just the way you are

Don’t blame yourself… you gave me love
More than enough… you were enough
And every time you say my name
Just know I hear you… it ain’t the same

I’m in a place where there’s no pain
No more tears, no more rain
So when you look up… just know I’m there
Still your baby… still your prayer”

They took my baby… and I still cry
Ask God questions He won’t reply
But I’ll keep sayin’ your name out loud
’Cause love like this don’t die


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Pain music, soul, RNB