Not Really There

Verse 1

I feel messed up

Years of lies and secrets

Cheating and hurting

The snide little comments

That made me feel guilty

(yeah…)

You played me

Played me well

Now I can’t think straight

I can’t breathe

I don’t even know what I feel

(don’t know…)

Pre-Chorus

How do you start again

With a life that’s broken

How do you erase

This kind of pain

(this kind of pain…)

Chorus

I’m stuck

So hurt and broken

But somehow I feel numb

Like I’m walking through life

And I’m not really there

People talk, I nod my head

But I don’t hear a word they say

I’m here in body

But my mind ran away

I’m not really there

(not really there…)

Verse 2

I thought I knew you

But I didn’t

I was living with a stranger

Sharing meals

Sharing a bed

Sharing a life

Then I woke up one day

And it was all a lie

(all a lie…)

Pre-Chorus 2

I don’t have words

For what you’ve done

There’s no coming back

From this

Chorus

I’m stuck

So hurt and broken

Yeah I feel numb inside

Like I’m moving through days

On autopilot

I replay every moment

Where did I go wrong

What did I miss

Why did I stay so long

I’m not really there

(not really there…)

Bridge

I wanted the dream

The fairytale

Someone safe

Someone real

I wanted a best friend

Not manipulation

Not control

Not secrets

I wanted love

Not survival

(not survival…)

Chorus

I’m angry at myself

For not seeing sooner

For holding on

For believing

But I know one thing now

I don’t want you near me

I don’t want your voice

In my head anymore

I’m walking away

(I’m walking away…)

Outro

I don’t know how I start over

But I know this isn’t my end

I’m still here

Even if I don’t feel it yet

(I’m still here…)