When It Changed

We used to talk all day and night,

Laugh at nothing, make time disappear.

Same faces lighting up my phone,

Felt like they’d always be here.

We knew each other’s rhythms,

Inside jokes, sleepless calls.

Didn’t think I’d miss the ordinary,

Didn’t think I’d miss it all.

Back then I didn’t brace myself,

Didn’t think endings came this quiet.

No big goodbye, no final fight —

Just distance growing in the silence.

And then it changed.

We drifted, faded, slipped away.

Same world, but nothing feels the same.

Some walked out and left a mess,

Left me holding what they broke.

Some just stopped replying back —

No warning, no goodbye note.

I didn’t lose them all at once…

They just stopped being close.

I replay conversations in my head,

Wonder where the shift went wrong.

Was it something that I said,

Or did I just hold on too long?

Now I’m talking to memories,

Not the people that they were.

Everything feels thinner now,

Less safe, more blurred.

It’s hard to grieve what didn’t end,

Hard to hate what didn’t fight.

They didn’t slam the door behind them —

They just turned into absence overnight.

Yeah, it changed.

The laughter turned into space.

Names I trusted feel out of place.

Some took more than they ever gave,

Left scars I didn’t earn.

Some went quiet, no reason, no sound —

Just a lesson I didn’t want to learn.

I didn’t lose them in a moment —

I lost them in slow decay.

I miss who I was with them,

Not just who they used to be.

I miss feeling chosen,

Miss feeling seen.

Now every connection feels temporary,

Like I’m waiting for the fade.

I don’t trust the calm anymore —

I’ve seen how fast it breaks.

It was good…

Until it wasn’t.

Everything changed.

I stayed the same too long.

Held space for people already gone.

Some left loudly, some just slipped away,

Both hurt exactly the same.

I don’t hate them — that’s the worst part.

I just live with what remains.

I had friends.

I had something real.

And then it changed.

Same me.

Different world.

Still standing…

Just missing what was real.