Intro]
Yeah…
It’s one of those nights.
Brain loud, room quiet.
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[Verse 1]
I been sittin’ in a haze with a mind full of static,
Tryna make peace with a world so erratic.
Heart got weight — yeah, the kind problematic,
But I hide it in a laugh like it’s somethin’ cinematic.
Ash on my jeans like a sign of the times,
Thoughts move crooked while I’m tryin’ to find lines.
Everybody love you till the moment you decline,
Then you fade in their memory like a song out of time.
Been walkin’ through the shadows on my own two feet,
Cold room, warm breath, heartbeat off-beat.
Life hit hard, but I still don’t retreat —
Pressure make gold, but it don’t come cheap.
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[Hook]
These ashtrays and attitudes
Got me lost in a lonely mood,
Tryna sort out the thoughts that bruise,
Feelin’ things I don’t wanna choose.
Yeah, ashtrays and attitudes,
Heavy heart but I’m pushin’ through,
Smoke circles with a deeper truth —
I break down just to make it new.
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[Verse 2]
I been runnin’ from myself in a slow-motion chase,
Tryna quiet all the noise I don’t got time to face.
Wish my doubts had a switch I could flip in place —
But they linger in the hallways of my head like space.
Said I’m fine — that’s a lie but it sound real slick,
People love easy answers when the vibe too thick.
Tryna heal old wounds with a new day’s pick,
But the hurt run deep like a habit I kick.
Still…
I rise through the ashes that fall on the floor,
Life swing heavy but I ask for more.
Pain ain’t pretty but it open the door —
To a better me I ain’t met before.
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[Hook]
These ashtrays and attitudes
Got me lost in a lonely mood,
Tryna sort out the thoughts that bruise,
Feelin’ things I don’t wanna choose.
Yeah, ashtrays and attitudes,
Heavy heart but I’m pushin’ through,
Smoke circles with a deeper truth —
I break down just to make it new.
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[Outro]
Ash fall slow…
Thoughts fall slower.
Still here though.
Still growin’.
DaveWhite
