Ashtrays & Attitudes

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Yeah…

It’s one of those nights.

Brain loud, room quiet.

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I been sittin’ in a haze with a mind full of static,

Tryna make peace with a world so erratic.

Heart got weight — yeah, the kind problematic,

But I hide it in a laugh like it’s somethin’ cinematic.

Ash on my jeans like a sign of the times,

Thoughts move crooked while I’m tryin’ to find lines.

Everybody love you till the moment you decline,

Then you fade in their memory like a song out of time.

Been walkin’ through the shadows on my own two feet,

Cold room, warm breath, heartbeat off-beat.

Life hit hard, but I still don’t retreat —

Pressure make gold, but it don’t come cheap.

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These ashtrays and attitudes

Got me lost in a lonely mood,

Tryna sort out the thoughts that bruise,

Feelin’ things I don’t wanna choose.

Yeah, ashtrays and attitudes,

Heavy heart but I’m pushin’ through,

Smoke circles with a deeper truth —

I break down just to make it new.

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I been runnin’ from myself in a slow-motion chase,

Tryna quiet all the noise I don’t got time to face.

Wish my doubts had a switch I could flip in place —

But they linger in the hallways of my head like space.

Said I’m fine — that’s a lie but it sound real slick,

People love easy answers when the vibe too thick.

Tryna heal old wounds with a new day’s pick,

But the hurt run deep like a habit I kick.

Still…

I rise through the ashes that fall on the floor,

Life swing heavy but I ask for more.

Pain ain’t pretty but it open the door —

To a better me I ain’t met before.

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These ashtrays and attitudes

Got me lost in a lonely mood,

Tryna sort out the thoughts that bruise,

Feelin’ things I don’t wanna choose.

Yeah, ashtrays and attitudes,

Heavy heart but I’m pushin’ through,

Smoke circles with a deeper truth —

I break down just to make it new.

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Ash fall slow…

Thoughts fall slower.

Still here though.

Still growin’.