Revivifying

I’ve been ghosting my own heartbeat,

Dodging the truth with both tired feet

Every step a lie I rehearsed—

Every blessing I twisted into a curse

I kept my secrets in a locket of smoke,

My mirrors fogged from the words I never spoke

I bend my shadows so you only see

The outline—never the breaking of me

But you… you read the tremble in my breath

You touch the parts I hide from death

And somehow I still push you away—

Like I’m scared you’ll see the real decay

I’ve been dodging conflict like it’s contact sport

Wrote apologies before I cut them short

A diplomat to my own destruction,

Signing peace treaties with malfunction

I’m a half-truth addict, a habitual pretender,

A burnt-out candle with a borrowed ember

I talk in riddles so I don’t confess—

My heartbeat’s coded in distress

And you keep striking matches in my dark,

Trying to pull the pulse from my missing spark

But every time you offer me light—

I flinch like I wasn’t made for the sight

So bring me back to life—

Press your hands where I keep the knife

Touch the pieces buried underneath,

Where I tuck my pain between my teeth

I’m begging you—

Break through the mask I made of fear

See my truth in smoke and mirror

If I fall apart inside your light…

Will you love what dies tonight?

Pull the veneer apart with mercy

Read the fine print written in hurt me

I’m a puzzle soaked in static

A panic dressed as pragmatic

If I strip down every layer

Would you call me sinner or savior?

If you touch my deepest, damaged part—

Will it wake my breath… or stop my heart?

Tear off the mask—

(Is this what you wanted?)

Hold what I am—

(Even when I’m haunted?)

Drag me from the smoke and lies

Show me where the real me hides

Break my bones of make-believe,

Rip the breath from disbelief,

Cut the cords that kept me still,

Pull me screaming through my own will.

I’ve been dying in the shadows of a truth unspoken,

Living like a prayer that’s already broken—

So shatter me, scatter me, drag me through the dirt,

If resurrection needs to hurt—then let it hurt.

Strip the static from my skin—

Peel me down to raw again,

Tear the echo from my fear—

Force my heartbeat back to here.

Drown me in the dark I made,

Bring me up when the ghosts all fade,

If I’m nothing but a hollow frame—

Fill me with the fire of your name.

(Screamed)

I CAN’T HIDE —

I CAN’T LIE—

IF YOU WANT ME LIVING,

TEAR ME OPEN WIDE.

DRAG ME BACK TO LIFE.

Bring me back to life—

Lay your hands where I sharpened the knife

Reach the fractures buried deep beneath,

Where my soul screams silent through my teeth

I’m begging you—

Break through the mask I forged in fear

See my truth past smoke and mirror

If I fade inside your light tonight…

Will you stay and resurrect what’s left of me?

ME!

AAAHHH!

Left of me!