[Intro – Spoken]
They think survival ends at surgery.
Like the danger stayed on the table.
But my heart remembers.
Every beat every second.
[Verse 1 – Slow, tense]
Chest tight, breath short, I can’t ignore it
Pulse racing, veins screaming, I assess it
Doctors talk in measured tones, I hear the countdown
Every silence a warning don’t let it drown
I’ve been here before, three times, stitched and wired
Heart wired for panic, but I’m required
To function, to stand, to act like it’s normal
But my heartbeat’s orchestra feels too formal
[Pre-Chorus]
Every monitor beeps like a memory
Every breath’s a question will it let me be?
I’m awake, I’m alive, but I’m listening
To the pulse that’s been quietly threatening
[Chorus – Melodic / Emotional]
I live between beats now
Counting seconds, counting signs
Every breath feels borrowed
Every calm is compromised
They say “you’re lucky,” I nod along
But my body still hums the fight
I survived the cut, the scar, the fall
But fear still checks my pulse at night
[Verse 2 – Fast Rap]
Three surgeries behind me, scars like tattoos
Every twinge, every ache, every bruise
I map my body like it’s enemy territory
Heartbeat’s a warning, not just a story
I calculate pain, I memorize patterns
Every flex, every shift, every sudden battering
I don’t panic I negotiate logic
Every second alive feels almost mythic
[Fast Rap ]
I don’t rest, I replay every heartbeat like it’s a threat
Every twinge, every stab, every second I can’t forget
Pulse spikes like alarms, veins screaming, I assess
Every motion feels critical can’t afford a misstep
I archive pain like data, label it “later”
Body remembers trauma, mind negotiates danger
Luck isn’t enough, it’s discipline in disguise
I survived the cut, the scar, the chaos in my eyes
Every calm feels rented, every smile conditional
Functioning’s my armor, survival’s habitual
They say I’m strong convenient narrative
Strength was the only way to stay unshatterable
[Bridge – Low / Bare]
I don’t fear death I fear uncertainty
If today’s the day, my body won’t agree
I survived the cut, survived the stitch
But peace is a shadow just out of reach
[Final Chorus – Cinematic]
I live between beats now
Still standing, still aware
They celebrate survival
But I live inside the care
I don’t need miracles
Just time that doesn’t rush
Let my heart keep learning
That it’s allowed to trust
[Outro – Spoken]
They say I’m lucky to be alive.
I agree.
I just wish my body knew it too.
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