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(Adlib:) Day 11.
(Adlib:) The hunger is loud... let's clear the room.
[V1]
I’m cleaning out the closet, throwing out the bags
Burning up the memories and burying the tags
Twelve years old, system kid, looking for a home
Now I’m thirty-five, feeling crowded when I’m standing on my own.
The water and the tea, yeah, they washing out the toxin
But I’m fighting with a demon and we in the middle of boxing
He tells me I’m abandoned, that I’m never gonna pass
That I’m just a foster failure staring through a broken glass.
But I’m a Health Science major, I know how the body works
But I’m trying to figure out where the spirit lurking lurks
Is it in the trauma? Is it in the DNA?
Or is it in the choices that I’m making every single day?
[Ch]
I’m on a detox, sweating out the past
I’m breaking every mirror just to make the image last
It’s a chemical warfare inside of my brain
I’m trading in the pleasure just to process all the pain.
I’m purging the rejection, I’m purging the fear
I’m screaming at the silence 'til the vision gets clear
It’s the Celebrate Recovery, the stepping of the stone
I’m building up a kingdom on a brand new throne.
(Adlib:) Detox!
[Refrain]
Flush it out... (Flush it!)
Burn it down... (Burn it!)
New Queen... (Yeah!)
New Crown... (Earn it!)
Empty stomach but a heavy soul
I’m finally taking back control.
[V2]
I look at the messages, yeah, "Catch and Release"
But I’m looking for the Savior, yeah, the Prince of Peace.
I tried to fill the void with the boys and the noise
Played with people's hearts like they were plastic little toys.
But the abortion left a scar, yeah, deep in the chest
And the breast reduction surgery, put the body to the test
I’m trying to find the value not in what I can provide
But in the little girl hiding on the inside.
The Irish Twin is fighting, yeah, she wants to take the lead
But I gotta starve the flesh if I’m ever gonna feed
The spirit of the woman that I know I’m gonna be
Eyepiercinglove... yeah, she’s finally getting free.
[Ch]
I’m on a detox, sweating out the past
I’m breaking every mirror just to make the image last
It’s a chemical warfare inside of my brain
I’m trading in the pleasure just to process all the pain.
I’m purging the rejection, I’m purging the fear
I’m screaming at the silence 'til the vision gets clear
It’s the Celebrate Recovery, the stepping of the stone
I’m building up a kingdom on a brand new throne.
(Adlib:) Detox!
[Refrain]
Flush it out... (Flush it!)
Burn it down... (Burn it!)
New Queen... (Yeah!)
New Crown... (Earn it!)
Empty stomach but a heavy soul
I’m finally taking back control.
[Br]
I’m hungry. Not for food... but for truth.
For the little girl I left in the voting booth
Of the system court.
I vote for me. I vote for Sarah.
I vote for healing.
I’m done stealing my own joy!
[Out]
(Adlib:) Clean slate.
(Adlib:) 21 days.
Eyepiercinglove.
We just getting started.
(Adlib:) Detox complete.
Eyepiercinglove
