As I lay my head down to sleep
I pray the lord my soul to reap
These thoughts in my head keep me from rest
But those who don’t understand say it’s a test
stay strong in my faith
Stay true to his word
But all I feel is the burn
As the world churns
Chewing me up
Spitting me back out
Each time I lay here wide awake
Thinking of what’s left to take
I try another night
Praying everything will be fine
Each day draws closer to the time
I commit sewerslide
Slit my wrist
Cock the nine
Blood draining out my veins
Down my arms
With tears falling from my face
Everybody says life isn’t a race
But here I am blood everywhere
As I say my last prayer
Lord forgive me for I have sinned
Suicide felt like my only option
Double checking everything
I wish she never threw away that ring
Or said all those awful things
Leaving me with all these memories
Feeding the fire inside of me
Drawing me closer with every day
I wake up and it’s all the same thing
But tonight it’s different I’m finally feeling
My life drain from my body as I pray for these things
God I hope you can please forgive me
I’m fading fast
My heartbeat slowing
My arms warm from all the blood flowing
The sting from the blade still echoing through my nerves
Oh last shot
It’ll be heard
9mm to the dome
Soon I’ll be there beside the throne
Wearing a broken halo
And tattered wings
For your soldier is coming home
It’s not ideal this I know
I’m sorry yall for the way I go
I just wanted it to be known
I did all I could
With my time
But it was too much
As you lay me down don’t rush
Play that song nice n slow
As you lay my body low
Dear god forgive him for the ultimate sin
Taking his own life
Before it even began
In this world full of sin
Yet another one goes
The stats are in
Just another number on that bulletin
I’ll rest easy finally my friends
Don’t worry I’ll be fine
For this is the last time you’ll see me smile
In a casket laid down in the dirt
I met death and oh boy did we flirt
Leave some flowers for me
That’s just alright you see
Don’t follow my example
Use it as a sample
Of what not to be
TexZn