After Midnight

After midnight I start thinkin’ ‘bout us

All the times you said I changed, I was stuck in a rush

Now I’m up, but it don’t feel like enough

Got everything I wanted but it still don’t touch

What we had, now it’s faded in dust

I act good but it’s really just tough

You moved on, I pretend I’m adjustin’

But I still feel somethin’ when I hear your name, trust

I been outside but I’m feelin’ alone

Different city but it don’t feel like home

I smile in pics but I’m glued to my phone

Hopin’ one text might change the tone

Remember nights we would talk ‘til three

Now it’s just memories talkin’ to me

I say I’m fine but it’s hard to believe

When your energy still won’t leave

People around me but I feel disconnected

Told myself I’m good, I just never expected

That I’d be here still feelin’ rejected

By a past I thought I already left in

After midnight I start thinkin’ ‘bout us

All the times you said I changed, I was stuck in a rush

Now I’m up, but it don’t feel like enough

Got everything I wanted but it still don’t touch

What we had, now it’s faded in dust

I act good but it’s really just tough

You moved on, I pretend I’m adjustin’

But I still feel somethin’ when I hear your name, trust

Maybe I’m trippin’, maybe it’s pride

Maybe I just hate how I swallow my mind

Scrolling back through every line

Like I’m searchin’ for a sign

I been growin’ but I still relapse

To the version of me that you knew in the past

Time moves fast but feelings don’t last

At least that’s what I tell myself to relax

Yeah… after midnight

It all comes back