BORROWED LIGHT

[Verse 1]
I met you in a season I was barely okay,
Smilin’ on the outside, barely holdin’ the day.
You saw the cracks I tried hard to disguise,
Didn’t flinch when you looked in my eyes.

I told you straight, “I’m not easy to keep,”
Got old heartbreak buried way too deep.
You said, “I ain’t here to fix your past,”
Just here to love slow, let it last.

That hit different — I ain’t used to patience,
Used to love loud, fast, full of complications.
So I move careful even when I care,
Tryna trust your love but still aware.

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[Pre-Chorus]
Healing messy, it don’t glide,
Some days I pull back just to hide.

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[Chorus]
I’m lovin’ you with borrowed light,
Still learnin’ how to shine right.
Half my heart still under repair,
Other half hopin’ you stay there.

If I hesitate, don’t take offense,
I’m just cautious with what’s left.
Not broken — just under construction,
Tryin’ to love you without destruction.

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[Verse 2]
You deserve sunsets, not cloudy skies,
A man fully whole, not improvise.
Some days I feel halfway built,
Other days heavy with leftover guilt.

I ain’t scared of you — I’m scared of loss,
Know how quick good things get crossed.
So I hold tight but gentle too,
Tryna protect me without hurtin’ you.

I watch how you listen, how you stay calm,
How your voice alone can disarm.
That peace unfamiliar but I lean toward it,
’Cause chaos love I finally grew bored with.

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[Pre-Chorus]
Love after damage ain’t smooth terrain,
But steady growth still break chains.

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[Chorus]
I’m lovin’ you with borrowed light,
Still learnin’ how to shine right.
Half my heart still under repair,
Other half hopin’ you stay there.

If I hesitate, don’t take offense,
I’m just cautious with what’s left.
Not broken — just under construction,
Tryin’ to love you without destruction.

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[Bridge – softer]
Maybe I don’t need perfection,
Maybe I just need direction.
Maybe love ain’t flawless art,
Maybe it’s two people guardin’ hearts.

Maybe patience louder than grand display,
Maybe real love grow day by day.

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[Verse 3]
I still got fears I don’t say out loud,
Still moments insecurity speak proud.
Still nights I wonder if I’m enough,
Even while you swear I’m strong and tough.

But every time you stay instead of runnin’,
It quiet doubts that kept comin’.
Remind me healing ain’t overnight,
And growth take courage, not just fight.

I don’t promise perfect, I promise real,
Honest words, effort, and how I feel.
And if you keep standin’ through my climb,
I’ll meet you stronger every time.

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[Final Chorus]
I’m lovin’ you with borrowed light,
But it’s brighter every night.
Scars still there but they don’t lead,
You see strength where I see bleed.

If you stay, I promise growth,
Honest love, not empty oath.
Not fixed yet — but I’m becoming,
And with you… I keep on runnin’.

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[Outro – spoken]
Cold Verse.
Not healed overnight.
Just healing right.

Melancholic piano ballad,slow 72–80 BPM,emotional male vocal,intimate sadlove song ,raw vulnerable lyrics heartbreak