[Verse 1]
You’re asking how I’m doing
I say “fine” and change the lane
I joke about the weather
Skip the part where I feel strange
All these careful answers
Stacked like dishes in the sink
I hang up in the silence
Staring at what I don’t say
What I don’t think
[Chorus]
I just wanna call you back
Tell you what I’m scared to ask
Will you still be proud of me
If I don’t turn out how you planned
I just wanna take your hand
Walk beside you
Not behind
I’ve been chasing being loved
Maybe love was here the whole time
[Verse 2]
I remember teenage anger
Slammed doors
Late nights
Sharp words
You were tired
I was fragile
We both tripped over being hurt
Now your hair is getting lighter
And my voice is not a kid’s
I’m still learning how to tell you
Where I end and you begin
[Chorus]
I just wanna call you back
Tell you what I’m scared to ask
Will you still be proud of me
If I don’t turn out how you planned
I just wanna take your hand
Walk beside you
Not behind
I’ve been chasing being loved
Maybe love was here the whole time
[Bridge]
Could we start with coffee
Talk like strangers
Slow and kind
Trade our old assumptions
For what’s really on our minds
I can’t change the past we had
But I can choose the words I say
If I reach a little further
Would you meet me halfway
[Chorus]
I just wanna call you back
Say the things I never have
Can we still rewrite the rules
Make a softer kind of map
I just wanna take your hand
Walk beside you
Not behind
I’ve been learning how to love you
While I’m learning to love my own life