[Verse 1]
Half in the grave
Half in the glow
IV in my arm
But I still won’t go
Teeth full of prayers
Tongue full of rust
Doctors say “breathe”
I just taste dust
Heart on the monitor
Drawing flat lines
I’m laughing in the dark
Counting my sins, my crimes
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Half of me built just to be destroyed
Holding on, fingers slip, I slide
Screaming, singing, I can’t decide
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Too dead to live, too alive to avoid
If heaven calls, let it leave a tone
I’m right here, on the edge, alone
[Verse 2]
Blood in the sink
Ink on my skin
Names of the ones
I wouldn’t let in
Friends at my funeral
Checking their phones
I’m in the rafters
Rattling bones
Can’t tell if I’m dreaming
Or if this is the end
I’m scrolling every memory
Searching for a friend
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Half of me built just to be destroyed
Holding on, fingers slip, I slide
Screaming, singing, I can’t decide
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Too dead to live, too alive to avoid
If heaven calls, let it leave a tone
I’m right here, on the edge, alone
[Bridge]
[Beat drops out, filtered bass and stuttering kicks take over]
Why does every hit feel like goodbye
Why does every breath burn me dry
Why do the kicks sound like a countdown
Every boom, every blow, another breakdown
Why am I nailed to this beating chest
Why can’t the silence lay me to rest
Why does the floor shake when I fall
If I’m already gone, why feel it at all (why?)
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Half of me built just to be destroyed
Holding on, fingers slip, I slide
Screaming, singing, I can’t decide
I’m stuck between the pulse and the void
Too dead to live, too alive to avoid
If heaven calls, let it leave a tone
I’m right here, on the edge, alone