A Ghosted Shadow

I never hated you…

I just forgot how to be me.

This is for the ones I love.

Forgive the wolf behind the smile.

I wore a borrowed face just to belong

Learned how to laugh where I felt wrong

Shaped my claws into gentle hands

Just so they’d let me stay in their lands

I silenced howls in my chest at night

Tucked my fangs out of sight

Traded moonlight for morning sun

Told myself the wolf was done

But every mirror knew the truth

A ghost in denim, lost youth

I bent my bones to earn their grace

Still felt like a stranger in my own face

If love means hiding what I am

Why does my soul still ache like this?

God, I tried to be their man…

But I still dream in wilderness.

I’m sorry if I was a weight on your heart

A shadow that lingered in the dark

I loved you more than words can prove

But I was dying trying to be loved by you

I’m a ghosted shadow under heaven’s moon

A wolf who forgot his tune

Still praying through the midnight glow

God, is it time to let me go?

I wanted to be brave like Peter in the rain

Mask on, smiling through the pain

Swinging hope through broken streets

Saving souls with tired feet

Or run like fire with a fox-heart flame

Carving meaning from my name

Be the hero they believe

Even if I still can’t breathe

But heroes bleed where no one sees

Cry to God on shattered knees

And every legend, every scar

Still wonders who they really are

If I lay this mask at heaven’s gate

Will You know me without the lies?

I’ve been knocking, God, it’s late…

I’m tired of these goodbyes.

I’m sorry if I was a weight on your heart

A shadow that tore worlds apart

I loved you deeper than my fear

But I disappeared just to keep you near

I’m a ghosted shadow fading slow

A wolf the daylight couldn’t hold

Still reaching through the endless blue

God, I just wanna come home to You.

To my family — I never meant to fall away

I just got lost between the beast and the saved

To my friends — you were the light in my night

I just didn’t know how to fight

I loved the humans, every tear, every laugh

But love felt heavy on my back

Not your fault… not mine alone

Some hearts were never built for stone

And if you hear this in the quiet someday

Know the wolf still chose to stay

Long enough to say goodbye…

Before he learned again to fly.

I’m shedding skin under silver skies

Let the old disguise die

No more hiding fang or flame

No more running from my name

I am not your fear, not your wound

I am the howl beneath the moon

A child of mercy, night, and dawn

A lost soul finally coming home

Call me what the stars once knew…

Shadowfang.

Shadowmoon.

No more ghost in borrowed skin

No more war I can’t win

I loved you all, that still remains

Love doesn’t vanish with the pain

So let me trust you