Dark Room Prayers

Night time talkin’ to the ceiling

One eye open, heart still bleedin’

Phone on silent, mind still ringin’

Devil in my ear, yeah, the same old singin’ (hush)

Half my brothers in the grave, half gone missin’

Other half chasin’ that high, wrong mission

Mama said “pray,” but the block taught prison

I was tryna feel somethin’, lost all feelin’

Lil homie tote steel like a toy in his hand

Thirteen, think he grown, tryna prove he a man

We ain’t talk about the nights that his hands still shake

Every time he see smoke, see the face he erased

Shorty sellin’ her body just to stay off E

Says, “I don’t love me, so how you gon’ love me?”

Everybody numb, we just mask that pain

New tattoo, new scars, same rain

This that dark room prayer, with the lights off

Tryna keep my head high when the night talk

If I say I’m okay, that’s a white lie

I’ve been dancin’ with my demons till the sunrise

Trapped where the high and the hate meet

Tryna wash this blood from my brain, but it stay deep

If I don’t make it out, tell my fam I tried

‘Cause I been walkin’ on the edge with a dead smile

Pill bottle on the sink, thoughts on red

Scrollin’ through names I could call, leave it on read

Ain’t a hero on this block, only ghosts in the stairs

And a choir full of sirens singin’ over our prayers

Cops ride slow, we pose like statues

Whole hood tense, every move might trap you

Talk real tough, but our hearts on thin ice

We ain’t born cold-blooded, we just livin’ that twice

I seen love turn lethal in a one-room flat

She just wanted something gentle, all she got was the strap

He ain’t wake up from that life he chose

Now it’s teddy bears tied to a light pole

This that dark room prayer, with the lights off

Tryna keep my head high when the night talk

If I say I’m okay, that’s a white lie

I’ve been dancin’ with my demons till the sunrise

Trapped where the high and the hate meet

Tryna wash this blood from my brain, but it stay deep

If I don’t make it out, tell my fam I tried

‘Cause I been walkin’ on the edge with a dead smile

If you feel like you one step gone

Hold on, hold on (yeah)

If your hands too tired to fold

I’ll pray for us both

This that dark room prayer, with the lights off

Tryna keep my head high when the night talk

If I say I’m okay, that’s a white lie

I’ve been dancin’ with my demons till the sunrise

Trapped where the high and the hate meet

Tryna wash this blood from my brain, but it stay deep

If I don’t make it out, tell my fam I tried

Sing my name like a psalm when the beat die