Anxiety

Anxiety 

Never been shy to a challenge  
it’s the thoughts I couldn’t manage 
I really couldn’t explain it as a youth 
but what is true 
Is that it beat me black and blue 
I had no choice but to listen to 
Forced a
reoccurring food 
anxiety inside of me eating me whole 
no one knows 
the troubles I hold 
it gets really cold 
always feeling alone 
even tho 
the room is full of people u know 
who say they love u 
u always feel it’s only u 
In this world  Only secluded to 
unstable dreams 
of me screaming
 trying to be saved 
I don’t even know my name 
falling to the bottom of the sea 
it’s pulling me so deep
 i need gills 
so I can breathe 
a mermaid 
I must be 
I don’t know 
I’m so confused 
who am I 
Am I just a phase 
a girl afraid of loud sounds 
but pound of the bass 
in my ears 
makes all my weaknesses
disappear 
I appear to be 
in the eyes opposite 
of me 
royalty a super being 
but to me looking internally 
 I’m just a weakling swallowed by 
anxiety trying to 
break free 
but I’m held captive 
I feel so weak
 anxiety 
let go of me 3x

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