Rain Cloud

(Intro — very minimal, almost spoken into space)

Yeah…

I don’t really know how to explain this…

It just never really goes away.

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(Verse 1 — cold, direct, heavier trauma focus)

I got memories I don’t like visitin’

They don’t knock, they just come in

Childhood echoes still in my skin

Like they never really left back then

I learned real quick how to stay quiet

Smile on face, but inside a riot

Raincloud sittin’ over my mind

Even on days when the sun feels fine

And she shows up, it all goes still

Like my brain finally learns to chill

But that’s the part that scares me still

‘Cause I know it won’t stay that way

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(Pre-Chorus — tension, slight desperation)

And I don’t wanna need her like that

But when she leaves, it all comes back

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(Chorus — raw repetition, not polished)

I’m tryna start a new chapter now

But I don’t even know how

To keep this weight off my chest

When I’m still stuck in the past, I guess

She quiets the storm in my head

But it comes back louder instead

And I hate that I feel this way

Like I can’t face it on my own someday

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(Verse 2 — more aggressive NF flow, faster cadence)

I don’t talk about it, I just hold it in

Act like I’m fine, then it starts again

Every good thing feels temporary

Like peace is something I can’t carry

And I know she ain’t the answer here

But she’s the first time it feels less severe

And that scares me more than the pain itself

‘Cause I’m still not good with myself

I don’t wanna build my peace on her

But she’s the only thing that stops the blur

And when she’s gone, it all comes back

Like I never even fought it back

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(Bridge — breakdown, almost breaking voice)

I don’t wanna lose her

But I can’t keep using her

To hold back everything I never healed

That’s not fair… that’s not real

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(Final Chorus — more intense, slightly faster delivery)

I’m tryna start a new chapter now

But it still drags me down somehow

She calms the storm in my head

Then it comes back heavier instead

And I need to learn on my own

How to stand when I’m alone

‘Cause I can’t keep building peace

On something that doesn’t fix me