Testimony

everyone is loyal until honesty offends them. They protect lies because truth ruins their image.

You're not too much. You're just too real for people still wearing the masks. Let them choke on the illusion. Of a life they can't hack.

Unfortunately, I'm not the type to go crazy and crash out anymore, l'll just look at you in disgust and move on with my life.

i distance myself when I feel unwanted. i won't beg for space in someone's life. if my presence doesn't matter, my absence won't either. i choose peace over forcing connection.

Or winning your affection.

I will never forgive you for what you put me through. You took everything.

And now, I have to figure out how to gather up all the pieces of my life and rebuild. Yet you get to just walk away like none of it mattered.

nobody can throw my past in my face. i will personally sit down and tell you my story, beginning to end. what may be your gossip, is my testimony. i've made peace with everything. Getting close to me ain't easy. I don't crave friends, I don't chase crowds, and I'm not trying to impress nobody. I'm solid by myself, at peace in my own space, and I move how I move whether anybody is watching.

healing doesn't feel healthy. it feels heavy.

like weight without relief. like moving with everything pulling back.

like carrying myself with nowhere to put me.

I'm no longer giving people the benefit of the doubt. You are what you show me. unfortunately yes, i lose interest when i feel ignored. yes, i lose interest when you act nonchalant. yes, i lose interest when you dont show any interest back. I am half dead and half alive, caught between the life I'm supposed to live and the death I secretly rehearse. What isn't meant for you will

keep disappointing you until the lesson finally sinks in.

I will never forgive you for what you put me through. You took everything.

And now, I have to figure out how to gather up all the pieces of my life and rebuild. Yet you get to just walk away like none of it mattered.

nobody can throw my past in my face. i will personally sit down and tell you my story, beginning to end. what may be your gossip, is my testimony. i've made peace with everything. Getting close to me ain't easy. I don't crave friends, I don't chase crowds, and I'm not trying to impress nobody. I'm solid by myself, at peace in my own space, and I move how I move whether anybody is watching.

nobody can throw my past in my face. i will personally sit down and tell you my story, beginning to end. what may be your gossip, is my testimony. i've made peace with everything. Getting close to me ain't easy. I don't crave friends, I don't chase crowds, and I'm not trying to impress nobody. I'm solid by myself, at peace in my own space, and I move how I move whether anybody is watching.