Style: Dark dance-pop with art-pop flair at a tense midtempo pulse, trap drums and sub-bass driving dark rap verses into bright chant hooks; verses stay clipped and close-mic with autotune sheen, pre-chorus opens into stacked falsetto and breathy doubles, chorus explodes with gang vocals and pitch-shifted ad-libs, reversed swells, and sparkly stutter FX bridge the drops; final chorus adds bigger harmonies and distorted kick. Bright, glossy, claustrophobic mix., rap, male vocals, bright, pop, Sad Grunge, strings)
I still taste your name
On the back of my tongue
Like cheap red wine
And a loaded gun
You call me at 3
Just to breathe in my ear
Say you hate what we were
Then pull me back near
And my friends say
“Boy, just let her go”
But they never saw your body
Lit up in the smoke
You got my fingerprints
Under your skin
And every time you leave
You break in again
—
You’re not my lover
But you move like one
Hands on my throat
Like a loaded love song
Tell me you’re done
Then you kiss me slow
Everybody sees the fire
But nobody knows
You’re not my lover
No, not anymore
But I still hear your heels
On my apartment floor
And I hate that I want ya
God, I do
Yeah I ruin myself
Just to get back to you
Lover
Lover
Lover
—
Black mascara tears
On the collar of my coat
You laugh when I bleed
Like it’s some kinda joke
Your new man stares
Like he already lost
Baby touching you
Always comes with a cost
I got your voice
Like a glitch in my head
Little pitch-shift ghosts
When I’m trying to sleep instead
And the bass hits hard
When your name comes up
Whole room going bright
While I’m throwing up love
—
You’re not my lover
But you move like one
Dance in the kitchen
With the TV on
Tell me you’re gone
Then you bite my lip
Leave another little scar
That I’ll never forget
You’re not my lover
That’s what you say
But your shadow still sleeps
On my side of the bed
And I hate that I need ya
More than truth
Yeah I ruin myself
Every time I choose you
Lover
Lover
Lover
—
(bridge — whispered / distorted)
Cut the lights
Kill the sound
You come back
When I drown
Red eyes
Fast heartbeat
You taste like
Bad memories
I know
I know
You’ll destroy me slow
But baby—
so what?
—
You’re not my lover
You’re a sickness I keep
Pretty little nightmare
That I don’t wanna leave
And the drums get louder
While the whole world spins
I hear your voice screaming
“Do it all again”
You’re not my lover
Still I call you mine
Like a prayer in reverse
Or a beautiful crime
And I hate that I love ya
But I do
Yeah I ruin myself
Just to feel close to you
Lover
Lover
Lover
Come ruin me too