Seared In My Mind

Darkness loomed as memory dissipated

Blocks of time gone

Only bits and pieces of time remain

The flashes of that night now haunt me

Maybe for all eternity?

Awake; and then it all goes dark

Time plays in slow motion

Only bits and pieces of time remain

Fading into the darkness like a nightmare

When will be the end of this game?

Intense pain awakens me

My eyes open wide to see

I cannot talk

I cannot move

I can barely breathe.

I want it to stop

I want to scream

Barely alive until it all goes dark again.

I wonder how long this darkness will follow me? Will it forever be seared in my mind? Will it forever be etched in my memory?

How many times will my mind go on repeat? Please tell me not for all eternity?