And Yet, I Am

[verse 1]  
When we first met  
It caught me off guard  
I didn’t know what love was yet  
But I felt it anyway  

I was too young  
Not even a teen  
You were funny  
Charming  
Magnetic  

I smiled at everything you did  
Every word felt like it was for me  
I didn’t see the cracks  
Just the glow  

[chorus 1]  
I can’t stop feeling this  
Every glance pulls me in  
I shouldn’t want it yet  
But I do  

[verse 2]  
I started to notice  
The way you dismissed me  
The careless words  
The arrogance in your laugh  

And still  
I stayed  
Drawn to you  
Even knowing the pull could hurt me  

I told myself  
I shouldn’t want you  
You’re reckless  
You’ll break me  
And yet, I stayed  

[chorus 2]  
I shouldn’t let this keep me  
Every touch hurts and draws me back  
I know it’s wrong  
But I can’t let go  

[verse 3]  
I hated my heart for loving you  
For craving what I knew was wrong  
For wanting you  
When all I should feel was anger  

Every touch, every glance  
Made me fight myself  
I despise this pull inside me  
This fire I can’t contain  
I shouldn’t be here  
And yet, I am  

[chorus 3]  
I despise this pull inside me  
Every glance ignites the fire  
I shouldn’t be here  
And yet, I am  

[outro]  
I shouldn’t be here  
And yet, I am

Modern R&B/pop, intimate & airy female vocals, piano & synth-driven, layered production, dynamic, subtle percussion