And Yet, I Am

When we first met

It caught me off guard

I didn’t know what love was yet

But I felt it anyway

I was too young

Not even a teen

You were funny

Charming

Magnetic

I smiled at everything you did

Every word felt like it was for me

I didn’t see the cracks

Just the glow

I can’t stop feeling this

Every glance pulls me in

I shouldn’t want it yet

But I do

I started to notice

The way you dismissed me

The careless words

The arrogance in your laugh

And still

I stayed

Drawn to you

Even knowing the pull could hurt me

I told myself

I shouldn’t want you

You’re reckless

You’ll break me

And yet, I stayed

I shouldn’t let this keep me

Every touch hurts and draws me back

I know it’s wrong

But I can’t let go

I hated my heart for loving you

For craving what I knew was wrong

For wanting you

When all I should feel was anger

Every touch, every glance

Made me fight myself

I despise this pull inside me

This fire I can’t contain

I shouldn’t be here

And yet, I am

I despise this pull inside me

Every glance ignites the fire

I shouldn’t be here

And yet, I am

I shouldn’t be here

And yet, I am