Why

(Heavy distorted 808 rumble — breathing in mic)

WHYYYYYYYYYY

WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE

I’M CURSED WHEN I TRY TO BE RIGHT

I GAVE MY HEART

I GAVE MY SOUL

BUT EVERYTHING I TOUCH

TURNS BLACK AS COAL

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EYE DON’T UNDERSTAND

WHY MY BLESSINGS TURN INTO BULLETS

WHY MY MERCY GETS LOADED AND PULLED

WHY I PRAY AND THE SKY DON’T MOVE

LIKE HEAVEN GOT SOMETHING TO PROVE

IS THIS KARMA?

THEN KARMA HATES ME

IS THIS FAITH?

THEN FAITH BREAKS ME

I’M SCREAMING AT A GOD

THAT DON’T EVEN SHAKE

I’M BLEEDING FOR A LOVE

THAT DON’T EVEN BREAK

OOOOOOHHHHHHHH

IT FEELS LIKE A BAD RELIGION

WITH A BEAUTIFUL NAME

PROMISING PEACE

BUT FEEDING ME PAIN

EVERY TIME I RISE

I GET DRAGGED THROUGH THE DIRT

EVERY TIME I HEAL

IT DOUBLES THE HURT

WHY

WHYYYYYYYYYYY

EYE DON’T UNDERSTAND

WHY MY GOOD DEEDS ROT

WHY MY PURE THOUGHTS GET SHOT

WHY MY PAST WON’T LET ME BREATHE

LIKE IT’S CAMPED INSIDE MY CHEST AND TEETH

IF THIS IS BALANCE

THEN TIP THE SCALE

IF THIS IS JUSTICE

THEN LET ME FAIL

BUT DON’T MAKE ME BELIEVE

THAT I DESERVE THIS PAIN

DON’T CALL IT LESSONS

WHEN IT FEELS LIKE CHAINS

I’M SO SICK

OF REPENTING

FOR THINGS

I DON’T REMEMBER

I’M SO SICK

OF ASCENDING

JUST TO CRASH

IN EMBERS

SCREAM

EYE

DON’T

UNDERSTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND

WHY LOVE FEELS LIKE WAR

WHY HOPE SLAMS THE DOOR

WHY EVERY TIME I TRY TO CHANGE

IT ALL COMES BACK MORE

I USED TO PRAY FOR MERCY

NOW I PRAY FOR PROOF

You said balance…

BUT ALL I SEE IS A NOOSE

Every blessing you sent me

Came with a blade

Every lesson you taught me

Left something decayed

You told me

“Be good, it’ll come back around.”

IT CAME BACK AROUND

AND PUT ME IN THE GROUN

(pause)

I FOLLOWED THE RULES

I SWALLOWED THE SHAME

I CARRIED THE CROSS

YOU SIGNED WITH MY NAME

BUT YOU NEVER SHOWED UP

WHEN I CALLED YOU OUT

You just watched…

WHILE I DROWNED IN DOUBT

IS KARMA JUST A FALSE PROPHET?

DRESSED IN WHITE BUT HANDS ARE

TOXIC

Preaching peace

But feeding panic

Calling pain

I’M NOT YOUR MARTYR

I’M NOT YOUR SAINT

STOP TELLING ME

THIS IS FAITH

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You say

WHY DO I BUILD

AND WATCH IT COLLAPSE

WHY DO I FORGIVE

AND GET STABBED IN THE BACK

I DON’T UNDERSTAND

BUT NOW I THINK I DO

Maybe there was no judge

No scales

No truth

Maybe it’s random

Maybe it’s fire

Maybe the universe

Don’t admire

Maybe I blamed religion

For what was just pain

Maybe I called it karma

To survive the rain

(Beat drops quieter — distorted whisper)

Or maybe…

I just hate losing

When I tried to win clean

BUT I’M DONE BOWING

DONE BLEEDING QUIET

DONE CALLING TRAUMA

A SPIRITUAL RIOT

IF KARMA WANTS WAR

THEN LET IT COME

I’M NOT A DISCIPLE

I’M A LOADED DRUM

I WON’T PRAY TO CONSEQUENCE

I WON’T WORSHIP CHANCE

I’LL TAKE MY SCARS

AND MAKE THEM ADVAN

IF THIS IS KARMA

THEN BREAK ME CLEAN

IF THIS IS GOD

THEN HEAR ME SCREAM

I DON’T WANNA WORSHIP

WHAT MAKES ME BLEED

I JUST WANNA LIVE

WITHOUT PAYING FOR BREATH I BREATHE

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Why

Wuh

WHYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHOOOoOOOoOO

why do this to myself just leave me out of my own

WHY!

EYE! DONT UNDERSTAAAAAND!!!