(Heavy distorted 808 rumble — breathing in mic)
WHYYYYYYYYYY
WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE
I’M CURSED WHEN I TRY TO BE RIGHT
I GAVE MY HEART
I GAVE MY SOUL
BUT EVERYTHING I TOUCH
TURNS BLACK AS COAL
AAAAAAAAH
EYE DON’T UNDERSTAND
WHY MY BLESSINGS TURN INTO BULLETS
WHY MY MERCY GETS LOADED AND PULLED
WHY I PRAY AND THE SKY DON’T MOVE
LIKE HEAVEN GOT SOMETHING TO PROVE
IS THIS KARMA?
THEN KARMA HATES ME
IS THIS FAITH?
THEN FAITH BREAKS ME
I’M SCREAMING AT A GOD
THAT DON’T EVEN SHAKE
I’M BLEEDING FOR A LOVE
THAT DON’T EVEN BREAK
OOOOOOHHHHHHHH
IT FEELS LIKE A BAD RELIGION
WITH A BEAUTIFUL NAME
PROMISING PEACE
BUT FEEDING ME PAIN
EVERY TIME I RISE
I GET DRAGGED THROUGH THE DIRT
EVERY TIME I HEAL
IT DOUBLES THE HURT
WHY
WHYYYYYYYYYYY
EYE DON’T UNDERSTAND
WHY MY GOOD DEEDS ROT
WHY MY PURE THOUGHTS GET SHOT
WHY MY PAST WON’T LET ME BREATHE
LIKE IT’S CAMPED INSIDE MY CHEST AND TEETH
IF THIS IS BALANCE
THEN TIP THE SCALE
IF THIS IS JUSTICE
THEN LET ME FAIL
BUT DON’T MAKE ME BELIEVE
THAT I DESERVE THIS PAIN
DON’T CALL IT LESSONS
WHEN IT FEELS LIKE CHAINS
I’M SO SICK
OF REPENTING
FOR THINGS
I DON’T REMEMBER
I’M SO SICK
OF ASCENDING
JUST TO CRASH
IN EMBERS
SCREAM
EYE
DON’T
UNDERSTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND
WHY LOVE FEELS LIKE WAR
WHY HOPE SLAMS THE DOOR
WHY EVERY TIME I TRY TO CHANGE
IT ALL COMES BACK MORE
I USED TO PRAY FOR MERCY
NOW I PRAY FOR PROOF
You said balance…
BUT ALL I SEE IS A NOOSE
Every blessing you sent me
Came with a blade
Every lesson you taught me
Left something decayed
You told me
“Be good, it’ll come back around.”
IT CAME BACK AROUND
AND PUT ME IN THE GROUN
(pause)
I FOLLOWED THE RULES
I SWALLOWED THE SHAME
I CARRIED THE CROSS
YOU SIGNED WITH MY NAME
BUT YOU NEVER SHOWED UP
WHEN I CALLED YOU OUT
You just watched…
WHILE I DROWNED IN DOUBT
IS KARMA JUST A FALSE PROPHET?
DRESSED IN WHITE BUT HANDS ARE
TOXIC
Preaching peace
But feeding panic
Calling pain
I’M NOT YOUR MARTYR
I’M NOT YOUR SAINT
STOP TELLING ME
THIS IS FAITH
AAAAAAAAAH
You say
WHY DO I BUILD
AND WATCH IT COLLAPSE
WHY DO I FORGIVE
AND GET STABBED IN THE BACK
I DON’T UNDERSTAND
BUT NOW I THINK I DO
Maybe there was no judge
No scales
No truth
Maybe it’s random
Maybe it’s fire
Maybe the universe
Don’t admire
Maybe I blamed religion
For what was just pain
Maybe I called it karma
To survive the rain
Or maybe…
I just hate losing
When I tried to win clean
BUT I’M DONE BOWING
DONE BLEEDING QUIET
DONE CALLING TRAUMA
A SPIRITUAL RIOT
IF KARMA WANTS WAR
THEN LET IT COME
I’M NOT A DISCIPLE
I’M A LOADED DRUM
I WON’T PRAY TO CONSEQUENCE
I WON’T WORSHIP CHANCE
I’LL TAKE MY SCARS
AND MAKE THEM ADVAN
IF THIS IS KARMA
THEN BREAK ME CLEAN
IF THIS IS GOD
THEN HEAR ME SCREAM
I DON’T WANNA WORSHIP
WHAT MAKES ME BLEED
I JUST WANNA LEAVE
WITHOUT PAYING FOR BREATH I BREATHE
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WHYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHOOOoOOOoOO
why do this to myself just leave me out of my own
WHY!
EYE! DONT UNDERSTAAAAAND!!!
( Let the beat switch up heavily)
(Heavy treble 808s)
SoviSilentHyena
