Me and Myself

Yeah… mm.

I been the punchline and the narrator, same time.

I talk big, then I trip on my own two thoughts

Bought dreams on credit, now they coming with the interest costs

I am that “almost” guy, that “close but” mascot

Bottom rung residence, rent paid in cheap shots

Ironically, Ironic me, honestly, I’m a prophecy

Of what you get when the pain learn to speak properly

I got a mouth full of maybes and a chest full of thunder

Smile like it’s nothing, then I crack like a number

Work boots, sore hands, still trying to feel chosen

Nights get cold when the future stays frozen

I build walls for a living, still can’t patch what I been through

Putty in the cracks, but the past still bleed through

I pray in lowercase, because pride too loud

I sin in silence, then I laugh in a crowd

I keep a brave face, like a screenshot smile

While my brain plays tag with my peace for miles

I’m still here, still broke, still brilliant in the worst ways

Still a heart in the dark trying to learn better birthdays

If I fall, I fall forward, let the concrete know my name

I been heat, I been rain, I been blame, I been flame

Some days my temper got a steering wheel and I’m in the back seat

Some days my memory ghost me like “who you think you asking”

Keys on the counter, thoughts in the ether

I misplace peace, then I go looking deeper

I got love at home, that’s the anchor, that’s proof

Two little stars in the night and I’m building the roof

I do dumb things, but I do not run

I learned real strength is staying when you could be done

I got a pen like a knife, but I cut out the poison

Turn storms into songs, that’s the craft I been toying

Studio in my head, every hurt got a verse

If I can’t fix the world, I can flip the curse

I am not perfect, I’m practiced

Pain made me passionate, blessings and accidents

I been the villain in my own little script

Now I edit the scene, let the healing commit

If you ever felt small, I know that space

If you ever wore jokes as a mask on your face

I’m not above it, I’m inside it, I’m trying

Still learning how to live without always surviving

I’m still here, still broke, still brilliant in the worst ways [yeah]

Still a heart in the dark trying to learn better birthdays [mm]

If I fall, I fall forward, let the concrete know my name [say it]

I been heat, I been rain, I been blame, I been flame

Bottom rung, top heart.

That’s the trade.

I'd never trade it for nothing