[Key Em 86 bpm, acoustic / post-hardcore]
[Setup: one acoustic, one vocalist doing both clean and screams]
[Intro – soft fingerpicking]
I have been running from every reflection
Afraid of the person who stares back at me
Hands in my pockets, stuffed full of confessions
Praying that silence can set me all free
[Verse 1 – clean, low]
[Em] I paint a smile on a [C] cracked foundation
[G] Laughing while the inside [D] caves in slow
[Em] I keep my secrets like [C] sharp ammunition
[G] Pointed at the only [D] heart I know
[Pre-Chorus – build]
[Clean] I say I am fine, I say I am fine
But my voice shakes every time
[Chorus – big strum, doubled clean/scream]
[Clean]
If I fall apart tonight, will You still hold me together?
[Scream]
IF I TEAR AT ALL MY SEAMS, WILL YOU STITCH ME BACK FOREVER?
[Clean]
I am tired of my own lies, I am tired of the weather
[Scream]
RAIN INSIDE THIS BROKEN CHEST, DO I SINK OR DO I GET BETTER?
[Turn – soft, let chords ring]
[Verse 2 – clean, fragile]
[Em] I learned to worship all [C] my addictions
[G] Little false saviors I [D] keep on a chain
[Em] I call it coping, You [C] call it a prison
[G] I keep rearranging my [D] bars in vain
[Pre-Chorus 2 – build harder]
[Clean] I say I can quit, I say I can change
But my steps fall the same way
[Chorus – bigger, more screams]
[Clean]
If I fall apart tonight, will You still hold me together?
[Scream]
IF I CHOKE ON EVERY WORD, WILL YOU HEAR THE ONES I NEVER?
[Clean]
I am tired of wearing masks in this fair-weather endeavor
[Scream]
TEAR IT OFF AND LET ME BLEED, JUST DO NOT LEAVE ME HERE FOREVER
[Bridge – palm mute, tension]
[Clean, whispered]
I do not know how to come home
I do not know how to let go
I do not know how to be known
[Scream – over same chords, rising]
TEACH ME HOW TO BREAK THIS PATTERN
TEAR DOWN EVERY GOLDEN LIE
IF THERE IS ANYTHING LEFT WORTH SAVING
SET IT ON FIRE, BRING IT TO LIFE
[Breakdown – percussive strums]
[Scream]
I AM NOT OKAY
BUT I AM STILL HERE
I AM STILL HERE
I AM STILL—
[Final Chorus – half-time, then swell]
[Clean – first half, soft]
If I fall apart tonight, will You still hold me together?
I am giving You my rage, all my doubt, all my pressure
[Clean + Scream – last lines, full strum]
[Clean]
If I fall apart tonight, I will not hold it in ever
[Scream]
I WILL BREAK AND I WILL SCREAM
BUT I WILL RUN TO YOU FOREVER
[Outro – fade picking, whispered clean]
Stay… while I fall apart
Stay… while I learn Your heart
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