Head Held High

Many nights I find myself alone amongst a crowd of thoughts

Some are just screams I hear and I cant get them to stop,

They pierce my ears with insecurities,

Constantly reminding me of all the words that have hurt me,

Stopped believing in myself,

Got treatment, it sort of helped

I feel depleted and defeated by a cruel world aimed to beat me,

Angels fight with demons and I can't tell who's winning

Thoughts and attempts at leaving this world plague me,

Feel like the only thing I live for these days are my 2 babies,

Been called every name and been called crazy

So

Does true love truly exist?

Will I ever feel like anything other than worthless?

So many narcissistic master manipulators have tried to break me, but they failed because instead it's just made me

I Realized that once I opened up my real eyes I saw thru the façade and all the real lies,

I won't let them be the reason why I die,

Instead they're the reason I smile and hold my head high

I was a broken man with a lonely heart, thinking I would never find love

My heart's been broken and also I've been the reason hearts break from

Lying and hiding, thieving and scheming,

never a cheater but i have been cheated

I've been a reason to believe in and I've been the reason for leaving

But the older I get

The more I regret ,

The feeling of expectations that I failed and never met

Depending on the circumstance

Everyone deserves a second chance so