[Verse 1]
Used to hold the crew like glue
Same sofa, same cheap food
Split plates, last slice, “you take it”
We were broke, but the bond felt sacred
Kept ‘em calm when they wanted revenge
Talked ‘em down when they talked on the ends
I was “bro, just breathe, don’t crash”
I was hands on the wheel, they gas
Every late night call, I’d answer
Hearts in my hands like a pastor
Took the weight, made a joke, they laughed
Inside, I was running out of map
Then the letter came: new visa, new fate
One-way flight, wrong side of the gate
Hugged ‘em tight at the terminal glass
“Keep it real,” last words, then I passed
[Chorus]
Five years in a foreign land
Lonely room and a shaking hand
I ain’t who I was back then
Had to break to be whole again
Talked to my shadow like it’s old friends
Every sunrise felt like it might end
I was losing me, trying to make a plan
Five years in a foreign land
[Verse 2]
New town, no one knew my name
Heavy accent, they just heard “strange”
Cheap job, cold rain on my shoes
Felt small in a world too huge
Phone screen, old group chat gone quiet
They were busy, life turned private
Scroll, scroll, see them raise a glass
I’m stuck clearing tables, clearing trash
Hustle mode, I was sleeping less
Side gigs, little flips, no rest
Stack notes, but the cost was deep
Couldn’t trust my own mind, lost sleep
Mirror talk, “Why you still here?”
Eyes red, but I fought that fear
Push-ups on a creaking floor
Every night swear I’ll give more
Voices in my head, two sides clash
One say “quit,” one say “build cash”
One say “call home, beg for a bed”
One say “stand up, slow grind instead”
[Chorus]
Five years in a foreign land
Lonely room and a shaking hand
I ain’t who I was back then
Had to break to be whole again
Talked to my shadow like it’s old friends
Every sunrise felt like it might end
I was losing me, trying to make a plan
Five years in a foreign land
[Bridge]
I was loyal to them, had to learn me
Loyal to the pain that would turn me
Every “no” carved lines in my face
Every loss taught the value of grace (yeah)
[Chorus]
Five years in a foreign land
Lonely room and a shaking hand
I ain’t who I was back then
Had to break to be whole again
Now if I fall, I still stand
Built a heart that can hold this span
Turned that lonely boy to a grown man
Five years in a foreign land