(Verse 1)
You said forever in a parking lot
Cheap headlights, July heat, tangled thoughts
Two kids playing grown-up hearts
Till you disappeared and tore mine apart
Then your name showed up in white and gold
On a wedding post somebody else had told
I stared till the screen went black
Something in me never came back
(Pre-Chorus)
I stopped sleeping, stopped eating
Started hearing my own mind screaming
Everybody said, “Girl move on”
But they didn’t know how far gone I’d gone
(Chorus)
I went psychotic when you loved her
Turned my whole world into thunder
Drove midnight roads, cried to God
Broke every version of who I was
I turned your memory on and off
Like a light switch burning out the wall
Now you’re back saying, “It was always you”
But I’m terrified of what your love can do
Don’t let me fall again
Don’t let me become that girl again
(Verse 2)
You built a life while I lost mine
Smiling in pictures while I blurred the lines
Talking to angels in the dark at 3 AM
Trying to stitch my sanity back again
And I healed slow, like broken bones
Learned how to survive alone
Then right when the scars turned thin
You walked right back in
(Pre-Chorus)
Now your hand feels just like safety
But loving you almost erased me
And I don’t know if hearts survive
A second resurrection twice
(Chorus)
I went psychotic when you loved her
Turned my whole world into thunder
Drove midnight roads, cried to God
Broke every version of who I was
I turned your memory on and off
Till my own reflection got lost
Now you’re back saying, “It was always you”
But I still shake remembering the truth
Don’t let me fall again
Don’t let me become that girl again
(Bridge — intense build)
Because you never saw the hospital nights
Or the war inside my mind
The panic attacks, the empty room
The way I almost disappeared with you
You came back healed and sure this time
But I still carry the ghost of mine
And if I open this door again
Promise me I won’t lose myself again
(Final Chorus — explosive)
I was psychotic when you loved her
Now you’re kissing me like no one touched her
Maybe we were written wrong back then
Maybe this is where the story bends
But if your love is fire
And I’m gasoline
Then hold me like forever
Or don’t touch me at all this time
Don’t let me fall again
I barely survived the first end
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