Too Loud To Hear My Heart

[Verse 1]
Kitchen light humming at midnight
Phone face down by the sink
All the words you sent
I reread them
Till the screen starts to sting
In my head there’s a crowd with a checklist
Every rule
Every line
Every test
You’re laughing through the speaker like it’s simple
I’m nodding
But I’m such a mess
[Chorus]
It’s too loud to hear my heart
Every should
Every shouldn’t
Every scar
All these voices telling me who I am
Where I fit
Who I get to hold
I could almost fall for you
If the world in my head wasn’t shouting through
I’m trying so hard to tune in to what I feel
But it’s too loud
Too loud to hear my heart
[Verse 2]
Your jacket’s still hanging on my chair
Smells like rain and a ride back home
We never touched
But my hands remember
How close
How close we were gonna go
Then a face in the mirror starts talking
“Don’t you dare
Think of them
Think it through”
I rehearse breaking this before it’s broken
You say my name
I look straight through you
[Chorus]
It’s too loud to hear my heart
Every should
Every shouldn’t
Every scar
All these voices telling me who I am
Where I fit
Who I get to hold
I could almost fall for you
If the world in my head wasn’t shouting through
I’m trying so hard to tune in to what I feel
But it’s too loud
Too loud to hear my heart
[Bridge]
If I close my eyes
Just breathe
Just breathe
Can I hear that quiet answer
Under everything they need from me
If I took one step
Past the lines they drew
Would the floor give way beneath me
Or would I fall into you (into you)
[Chorus]
It’s too loud to hear my heart
Every rule running circles in the dark
All these voices telling me who I am
Where I fit
Who I get to hold
I could almost fall for you
God
I wish I didn’t care what they’d say or do
I’m reaching through the noise to find something real
But it’s too loud
Too loud to hear my heart

Intimate alt-pop ballad with female vocals; close-mic’d lead over soft pulsing synths and distant, hazy pads. First verse almost whispered, kick barely there, then chorus blooms with warm bass, sidechain swell, and airy harmonies. Second pass leans into layered doubles, subtle glitchy ear-candy, and a final half-chorus drop to fragile vocal and sparse chords., noise, female vocals