I still hear your voice in the quiet of this house
Like a ghost that won’t shut the fuck up and get out
Your sweater’s on the chair, still smells like you
Lilacs and bullshit, and everything we went through
I held on too long, I know that shit’s true
But watching you leave cut me deeper than I knew
I ain’t begging, I ain’t crawling on the floor
I’m just standing here broken, can’t take it anymore
This is the last fucking time I say your name soft
The last time I pretend this didn’t cost me everything
Goodbye, I’m done bleeding for a memory that’s gone
Goodbye, I’m done waiting for a ghost that won’t come home
I loved you hard, I loved you wrong, I loved you till it broke me
Now I’m saying goodbye with every fucking piece of me
All the milestones I’ll hit and you won’t be there
Birthdays, quiet nights, just an empty fucking chair
I keep replaying the good days like a glitch in my head
Then the silence hits and I wish I was dead
You left a hole so wide I can feel the wind through it
And no amount of rage or tears is gonna fill that shit
I ain’t bitter for the sake of it, I’m just tired of the weight
Of carrying your absence like it’s somehow my fate
This is the last fucking time I say your name soft
The last time I pretend this didn’t cost me everything
Goodbye, I’m done bleeding for a memory that’s gone
Goodbye, I’m done waiting for a ghost that won’t come home
I loved you hard, I loved you wrong, I loved you till it broke me
Now I’m saying goodbye with every fucking piece of me
I hope you’re warm wherever the hell you are
I hope the pain I feel doesn’t follow you that far
But I’m allowed to hurt, I’m allowed to curse this night
I’m allowed to scream your name one last time into the dark
Then let it die
This is the last fucking time…
Goodbye.
I’m done.
I’m letting go of the only thing that ever felt like home.
Goodbye.
Matrix
